I feel like my method of building things is so aggressive, like I can build a wooden bed for a little UTV trailer I made in 2 hours without measuring but it's so rough and it seems like alot of my metal and wood projects are very like, abrasive, like quickly and aggressively built

This leads into when my friend was talking about being on estrogen and how it made them a bit more patient and like well, less aggressive and I really can understand the "aggressiveness" that testosterone kinda causes ngl it like affects everything I do everything is so (relatively) rushed and idk it feels caveman-esque like instead of re printing wrong diameter tubes I'll just wrap it with electrical tape until it fits or this one isn't as much the case anymore but I'll use my sawsall to make cuts rather than use a handsaw, and usually the cuts end up crooked but I'll just force "use" the cut object anyways

Like I don't think I'll be trying estrogen anytime soon ever, I like having my random gorilla strength and being able to quickly recover and build muscle (although I don't workout so it's not used to it's full ability) but like I see so clearly the mental effect it has and tbh I don't like it and I think it might be very beneficial to atleast train myself so that it influences my actions less, although that will be hard considering I have no clue what it's like otherwise from an internal perspective

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