If you've read my The Pact books and love the brain-pushing stuff/metaphysical parts the most, you'll love this (he explores several of the same topics):
https://open.spotify.com/episode/031mtxfwvp01AsiZKtxjjc?si=XwEvto_nTzygeUWJcfwlrQ
https://open.spotify.com/episode/031mtxfwvp01AsiZKtxjjc?si=XwEvto_nTzygeUWJcfwlrQ