If you look at the very center of the universe, inside the black hole, inside and before time itself, you'll see your very reflection gaze back at you, and it shows you what you could become, everywhere, across infinity.
Infinite versions of yourself, all existing in a finite plane, in front of your -now useless- eyes.
And even then, would you stay proud of who you are?

O holy death, take us away.

Our souls are not ready for life.

If you want to self teach high level mathematics read "The Book of Proof" by Richard hammack

https://www.people.vcu.edu/~rhammack/BookOfProof/

tryna sleep but they