I’m not her anymore…

It was my dad’s birthday yesterday and I hosted a dinner party with friends and family. My eldest daughter mentioned she had digitalised some old VHS videos of my wedding and of when she was a baby, so we ended up watching some of the recordings.

I had not watched the video of my wedding since when it took place, so it was quite an emotional experience to revisit the moment.

My wedding was a simple and intimate affair that took place under the carob trees in my parent’s garden, one hot summer evening many moons ago. The video was taken by a friend, so it’s an unedited and totally candid capture of the beautiful spirit of the moment.

As I watched the video, what struck me the most, was the sense of time, (it was much slower) and the naivety, the lightheartedness, the calmness and the innocence of us all.

How different life feels now…

I realised I wasn’t aware then, of just how beautiful I was. Such a natural and authentic beauty, so full of light, of love, of joy… A twenty three year old child full of dreams and hopes for the future, about to embark on a journey with no return.

There is an essence of that girl that still remains inside of me, but as I watched her smile and sing and dance, I realised, I am not her anymore.

Life stole away the innocence and completely destroyed the naivety, it replaced the calmness with stress and the peace with a constant sense of worry. It limited the possibilities, constrained the dreaming, shattered my beliefs and shook me until one day, my life as I knew it, came tumbling down. That was the moment when my awakening started, when the girl I used to be, had to pick up the pieces of her broken heart.

None of us are who we used to be, my story is not unique, we’ve all had to face the crude reality of life with all its trials and tribulations.

Life is a constant process of change and evolution and I am proud of all the mountains I have climbed and of who I have become and are becoming, but I confess, that I was overcome with a deep sadness to be reminded of the loss of that beautiful, unspoiled, genuine innocence that once emmanated from every pore of my being.

I dream of that state of being. I dream of a reality where we can regain our unspoiled nature, our joy, our childlike innocence, our hopes, our dreams and our possibilities.

Life doesn’t have to be this way, it doesn’t have to be this heavy and dark, the Great Awakening is about realising that things could be infinitely better.

We must remove the veil that distorts what’s real, the lies that disguise the truth, the perversion that ruins the pure and the evil that is destroying the good.

I may not be her anymore, life made me trade innocence for wisdom, but I know that her spirit is still with me and it’s her spirit that made me start this channel, it’s her spirit that talks to you everyday and it’s her spirit that despite all, still believes that what I dream is possible.

All I wish, is for more of you to dream with me so that together we can make it happen… 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

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