I'll retreat back to my hole for an undetermined amount of time until I once again have the motivation to continue

This lil shit should be arriving today
I'll post pics if it looks good

My literal everything is pain after setting this up
Fucking 3 page ass instructions with vague interpretations of what you're supposed to do.
And they sent me the old wrong instructions!
I found the right ones online... AND THEY'RE ALSO SHIT!

"Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid S" extra episode PV. The unaired episode will be released on Blu-ray & DVD "Vol.S" on January 19.

So I've had a lot of time to think about this

But long story short is I'm going to be stopping work on stickers.

The longer story follows.

Current state of mind

Over the last few years my quality bar for stickers has become a bit out of control. I've gotten to the point where I can't find satisfaction in the work that I'm pushing out. And to reach the level of quality I want to achieve, I need to assign too much time into working on stickers for me to realistically still have free time for myself.

It first started with just thinking that I'll redraw the small pieces that were out of frame because they're easy to do.
Then came colour adjustments.
Then came realizing that I can make larger edits for things out of frame.
And that spiraled into complex redraws on various different parts.
Hell one time I drew a completely unique sticker, but I won't think that's a negative.

It's not that I wasn't happy with the results (on release). But I always feel like I can do better. Then with time I become dissatisfied with my older work because of the newer efforts I've applied and realize that I should go back and fix things. Hell, my first dragon maid pack is littered with artifacts due to some bad practices I applied when I started working on stickers originally. To go back and fix it all to a level that I'd be happy with is just such an exhaustive task that I've kind of given up on it as well. Some people are completely happy with the packs as is, but the problem is that I know of the problems. I know how to fix them, even if no one will notice, it's something that I feel I should be doing.

Now not only with old packs that I want to revitalize, I also want to bring out new content. And the work just keeps piling up causing me to become overwhelmed. In the end I can't find the motivation to start any of my sticker projects simply because of the mountain of work I see left in front of me. And tackling it doesn't mean the work becomes less. In contrast it just keeps feeling like I'm making more work as I find new ways of trying to improve the files I want to push out.

If I were not working or didn't have other hobbies (I have way too many hobbies), I might have entertained the thought of trying to do all of this work, because it's not like I have anything better to do. But that's not the case. I do feel like I have better things to do.

With stickers came guilt. Guilt that if I'm doing anything else, then I'm not making progress on my stickers. So instead of doing either. I just sit there in contemplation for hours of "what will I do today" because I have so many options available. The evening then ends and I didn't even touch anything aside from just sitting there in contemplation. No games were played, no work was done. Truly a wasted evening.

As the admin of @line_stickers once said. "Brei is Gay". But also, "Sticker making is suffering". You have so many people to satisfy, but in the end you still want to satisfy yourself and that's sometimes much harder when your standards of quality is constantly increasing.

Another form of suffering is that you're not able to enjoy watching the shows that you're working on anymore. You're too busy analyzing every scene for viable reactions that would make a good sticker for you to actually enjoy watching the show itself anymore. Instead of being happy with what's in front of you, it's thoughts of "well shit, I need to redraw about 40% of this if I want this reaction to be a sticker that I'll be happy with".

From today onward this is no longer a sticker channel. Stickers that do get added are purely coincidence to me wanting something and not because I'm planning to do additional work on something.

So what happens now. At least to this channel

Well... That I don't have a concrete answer to at this time

I wish to get back into drawing again. Although most of what I draw I won't really post on here. Namely because of that quality bar mentioned before and not really being satisfied with what I'm making, but also that it's not really content that would align with what drew people here in the first place.

This does not mean I won't post anything here, but it won't be everything. When I maybe improve to a level I'm comfortable with I'll post my profiles here. Some of you might already know where my profiles are so feel free to hunt them down if you're interested.

Right now I'm trying to figure out how to draw in a way that I can call consistent as well as create a style that suits the result I want to achieve. So I'll be doing a lot of experimentation that can create drastic differences from picture to picture.

When it's not going to be drawing. I might investigate writing some crappy telegram bots to do simple jobs that I've been wanting to automate.

And if I really want to try again, I might get into game development again. Hopefully I can get something out of the concept phase and into a concrete demo at some point.

I feel like I need to point out, I'm not a programmer. This is still going to be a learning experience for me.

Maybe I'll improve video editing skills and make funny haha maymay's.

If you sat here reading through all of this, I'm glad you allowed me to waste some of your time. Feel free to stick around for whatever is going to happen here in the future. I don't expect to keep all my subscribers as most were just here for updates to see when new stickers launched.

Before heading out, be sure to go check other neat channels worth following.

https://news.1rj.ru/str/Fishbowl
https://news.1rj.ru/str/otakugallery
https://news.1rj.ru/str/witch_hat

Friend arrived

Expect something before December is over

Introducing: Shinka
Going forward I will use her as my new public face.

I've been using Kobayashi over the last few years as my persona, but I feel like I needed to bring some originality into my identity.

This way I don't disservice Kobayashi's character through my actions.

Over the coming months, I'll be making more art and slowly be replacing my online profile images with new pictures of Shinka. This will be the new "me".

As much as I adore Kobayashi's character, I wish to be more recognizable through my online interactions with a character that is my own.

"Pop Team Epic" season 2 announced.

You know the drill

Smuggu shinka

*I'll try to make this less wide another day

So the plan is to redraw most of this but using this original image as the base
I need to adjust my frameworking to make pictures I draw seem less wide but that's another days problem

Smuggu shinka revised

Niko is home

Another 48 hours till Elden Ring

🇺🇦 https://itch.io/b/1316/bundle-for-ukraine 🇺🇦

Happy birthday indeed

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