Schumann update as of 1900 hrs PT / 2200 ET / 0200 UTC

Good morning ☀️🌞😃

Was anyone else unable to sleep last night?

And that moon was soooo bright here. It was blasting out intermittently from behind the clouds.

Schumann Resonances as of 0700 hrs PT / 1000 ET / 1400 UTC

🌕🌕🌕Full Moon Alert 🌕🌕🌕

Women: remind the men closest to you to schedule dumb comments for next week. Take the slower route. Don't expect too much of yourself today.
Men: offer chocolate, offer help but try not to throw gasoline on her fire. She's already full.

April’s full moon in Scorpio — aka the Full Pink Moon, named for wildflowers that bloom this time of year — is an opportunity to grapple with emotions that you might not be as aware of on a daily basis. Scorpio, the sign of the Scorpion, is committed to uncovering and addressing taboo topics that we tend to think of as best kept under wraps. This often includes our most challenging feelings, particularly stemming from our most intimate relationships — including the one we each have with ourselves. You could become more aware of particular fears, power dynamics and control issues. Scorpio also exhibits great reverence for family, so you could find that talking through whatever is coming up for you now with loved ones allows you to pinpoint a healing path. And because the sign is associated with the Eighth House of Joint Resources, this lunar event could fuel conversations, conflicts and culmination points related to financial goals you share with relatives.

this transformative, powerful, intimacy-building full moon falls in Scorpio, the fixed water sign ruled by both Mars, the planet of action, energy and aggression, and Pluto, the planet of rebirth and control. In turn, this culmination-bringing lunar event will require you to acknowledge undiscovered truths and foster your inner fearlessness and power. It’s also a moment in which you could be challenged to strike a balance between enjoying the simple pleasures of life — a theme of Taurus season — with swimming in the deep end of your most complex emotions

More: https://www.womansworld.com/posts/horoscopes/full-moon-in-scorpio

Here's some fun things I am learning this season:

I tend to assume people are mad at me.

Who knows when that began?

As soon as I could see it existed, I was able to see the roots of where it came from.

Here's how I found the pattern:

The other day I realized I hadn't heard much from my mom in the last week. I started to assume she was mad at me. Then I got a random message from her saying that they were out camping and 4-wheeling.

So she was just busy 🤦🏼‍♀️

That same day I went roller blading with kids. About half way through I assumed my oldest was pouting and angry at me for not going the whole way we had intended (everyone was tapped out). Turns out he wasn't pouting, he wasn't even mad. He was just tired and wanted to walk.

Later that night I recognized I was getting angry because I assumed my husband was angry. After a few minutes I started to connect the dots between my earlier assumptions that day... so I asked him if he was mad and he said no. His energy wasn't lying.

So yeah. I kind of think people are mad at me ....a lot.... when they aren't.

But now I can see it. Now that I see it, I can actually listen to it and slowly but intentionally unravel those knots.

Here's the thing though... it's an interdependent trauma response. Meaning, there's another trauma which makes it so that I do care whether or not people are mad at me. A lot. Another attribute which has moved under the magnifying glass through this past eclipse season for me.

I sacrificially put others desires above my own, constantly. It's not healthy. It's why I have meltdowns every few months.
I sacrifice too much. I bend too much. I take and I take and I take on the burdens and try to moderate the energies. Then I break.

Now that I see this pattern, this cycle and WHY it's happening, I can trace those roots to find the core beliefs driving this desperation to be liked and "in good graces".

Some things I'm trying to learn:

🌻Not every problem is mine to solve. In fact, moderating the emotions I feel coming from others has held them back from moderating their own emotions, outside of my help.

🌻Not every emotion is mine to take on.

🌻Everyone else's "wants" don't trump my own.

🌻I can't expect others to know or prioritize what I want if I won't prioritize it myself.

🌻"Is this actually what I want or am I being influenced by someone else's desires right now?"

🌻Sometimes I need to allow others to have their emotions while I say what I need to say. Let them be mad at me or not like me. I'm not for everyone and when I die surely there will be 1 person who says "she was the worst". Just embrace it and move on.

🌻Sometimes I need to mull an emotion over, to trace where it's coming from, to see the whole picture before I speak on it.
Sometimes I need others to see that whole picture and sometimes I don't, I just need them to HEAR when I tell them what it is I do need.

🌻Do the things that are meaningful to me even if it makes others uncomfortable. Like giving the table next to us all of our chocolates because otherwise they'd be thrown away - even though it makes my husband want to crawl out of his skin for drawing attention. Letting that be his in "cup" because I know why I give things freely-- and that's an embedded part of my nature for good reason. I'm not going to stifle it because then I won't have a cup to fill anymore.

🌻Take time for myself. Because it isn't going to be given to me. And I've been through a lot of shit. So sometimes I just need to take it if that is what I need to work through a highly charged moment and re-balance myself.

Figured it may help someone else out there uncovering and unraveling the same buried emotional patterns.

🔥🌻💫@EmbersFromAsh

That meltdown cycle you mention is key. I found that pattern in myself and traced it all the way back to childhood. We THINK we are coping, when really, we are in an unsustainable state: Wired, hyper-vigilant, stressed… the sympathetic nervous system fired up. And because the body truly can’t keep that up indefinitely, we crash. Because we HAVE to. There is no other possible outcome.

But until we can break the pattern, we go right back into that highly aware state as soon as we’ve recouped enough energy to do so. And it starts all over again.

And then, eventually, we get sick. Physically or mentally or both. I think in reality it’s always both but it manifests differently for different people.

My point is, that this is a defense mechanism / trauma response that I think many people develop and it’s important to talk about because once you SEE it, you can begin to unravel all the knots.

@awakening_with_yas 💫

And along those same lines…
for the most part Empaths are MADE, not born.
(Yes, I do believe that people being born with more intuitive and empathetic abilities is very real and possible. However, I do not think that’s the most common way that it comes to be.)

We become Empaths because we needed to as children in order to survive and to find safety. We just didn’t know that we were doing it. How could we? It’s a trauma response.
Trauma responses happen well below the threshold of Consciousness.

Learning to read people BEFORE they explode or hit or are emotionally cruel is a superpower that we are forced to develop out of necessity. So, stop acting as though “being an Empath” is some magical gift that makes you better than others.

Yes, it’s a superpower, but if you don’t address WHY and HOW you developed that power, it’s going to continue to bite you in the ass day after day, time after time.

If you were lucky enough to have been born with high sensitivities and someone nurtured that in you, then that’s absolutely wonderful. But many people need to face the darkness and pain that they were put through in order to develop the powers that they have now. Not to become angry about it, or to see themselves as victims. But to fully claim it by understanding the mechanism by which it was forged.

If you don’t, every time that same scenario appears in your life, you’re going to get sucked into it and likely give away far too much of yourself in the process. Once you can fully see what happened, you are in a position to truly help others because you Know from experience how it works.

@TruthRascalHQ ✨💕✨

A healed person is not a “perfect”person.

A healed person just loves and accepts what IS without judgement. A healed person has looked at all the wounds, scars and blemishes and kissed them. Not to make them go away, but to tell them that it’s ok to stay. And in doing so, they lose all their power. They become cherished and beautiful in their own right.

Perfection is an illusion, not because it’s unattainable, but because you are already perfect…despite all the things you think are wrong with you.

There is nothing wrong with you.
You are not broken.
You are not bad.
You are Human.

And Creation does not make mistakes.

@TruthRascalHQ ✨💕✨

Pink Moon – The Pond by Mary Oliver

You think it will never happen again.
Then, one night in April,
the tribes wake trilling.
You walk down to the shore.
Your coming stills them,
but little by little the silence lifts
until song is everywhere
and your soul rises from your bones
and strides out over the water.
It is a crazy thing to do –
for no one can live like that,
floating around in the darkness
over the gauzy water.
Left on the shore your bones
keep shouting come back!
But your soul won’t listen;
in the distance it is sparkling
like hot wires. So,
like a good friend,
you decide to follow.
You step off the shore
and plummet to your knees –
you slog forward to your thighs
and sink to your cheekbones –
and now you are caught
by the cold chains of the water –
you are vanishing while around you
the frogs continue to sing, driving
their music upward through your own throat,
not even noticing
you are someone else.
And that’s when it happens –
you see everything
through their eyes,
their joy, their necessity;
you wear their webbed fingers;
your throat swells.
And that’s when you know
you will live whether you will or not,
one way or another,
because everything is everything else,
one long muscle.
It’s no more mysterious than that.
So you relax, you don’t fight it anymore,
the darkness coming down
called water,
called spring,
called the green leaf, called
a woman’s body
as it turns into mud and leaves,
as it betas in its cage of water,
as it turns like a lonely spindle
in the moonlight, as it says
yes.


 ‎ "Pink Moon-The Pond". Copyright © 1979. Back Bay Books

We are emerging from the Dark Ages.

@awakening_with_yas 💫