The truth is ... I wrestled with too much guilt the first time I walked away. So when I was taught how to let go and forgive, I thought that meant excusing her abuse. I let her back in.

For years it was subtle. Her dysfunction toed the lines. She had learned what to direct my way, and what not to. And I lived far enough away to feel less affected.

It took a tragedy and enmeshment to get close enough to see that the only thing that had ever really changed.... Was me.

I had changed.
I had found my way to real love. To real support. To real healing.
I had broken the generational pattern.

I knew I didn't deserve what she was doing.
I knew nothing I ever did would be enough.
She required my silence to hold together her delusions.

I was done staying silent.
I was done crying in the dark wondering where all the pain came from.
The fog had cleared and I could see how it all made sense. How I made sense. I finally understood how and why I became the wife, mother and person I am.

I didn't need to be the perfect daughter anymore.

I was done making excuses for her.
I was done trying to help her see reason when she was on her abuse spree.
I was done being her "guru" when she needed answers.
I was done being her "dolly" when she needed control or credit.

I stopped being her supply and have been happier, more free to be the good hearted person I am every day since.

@EmbersfromAsh

2nd half is now up -HERE-. I can't be bothered breaking it down into individual TG posts,
so here is the link to Part I too -HERE-

https://www.herosjourneyreturn.com/post/wizards-and-initiators-arrive-precisely-when-they-mean-to-part-ii

This is the kind of shit I wanted to see from MY White House. 🔥

Well now. This is telling…

And no. I don’t mean telling about Trump. Seems the influence machine is working overtime.

Fact check: TRUE.