I should seriously shut the fuck up.

Nobody’s watching. You can stop pretending.

Not to be dramatic but I think something might be wrong with my brain.

Deleting dating apps 👍🏽 or 👎🏽?

Honestly this shit is traumatizing as fuck.

Idk maybe dying alone isn’t such a bad idea as long as dying is involved.

Honestly someone with this many disorders shouldn’t be involved with anyone anyway.

God I love having an eating disorder. I love not being able to eat properly even when I’m starving. I love depriving myself from food because I think I don’t deserve it. I love that everytime I actually have a full meal I feel guilty as fuck. I love how I eat so fast so the process ends asap. I love how sometimes when I eat I start pacing around the house after every bite because it makes me anxious. I love how I smoke more in the hope of decreasing my appetite. I love how untill a few years ago I couldn’t eat in front of other people for fear of being judged and even now sometimes it gets uncomfortable. I love how when I skip meals I feel a little proud of myself. I love that whenever I enjoy food a voice in my head tells me I shouldn’t.

I love that even now I’m like if you worked out more, you wouldn’t have a shitty relationship with food, so this is all basically your own fault.

It is.

Matt Murdock I’m so done with your bullshit. How fucking stupid are you you idiot?

What even was that? Why would you do that?

I’m actually a sucker for one-take shots, and this mf shot a 1hr episode in one take. Show off. I loved it. Keep it coming.

Adolescence is actually traumatizing, Jesus.

I’ve seen this movie before
I think I’ve heard this song
Your future’s right out the door
Couldn’t get it wrong

My future’s not what I thought
I think I thought it wrong

Must be nice. Guess I’ll never know.