You know what I actually miss? I miss films, I miss sitting in a dark silent room and watching a European black and white film from the 60s and thinking for even one fucking second that life is actually worth living.
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At this point I don’t think even that would make me feel like life is worth living.
Years of Silence
Thurisaz
Years of silence without any hope
For life has seemed to forget me
No wasted tears
Only grief for the past
Though I long for fortune to come
Falling down
Falling away from the underground
Fade away
Searching for something to hide astray
Kneeling down
Into denial for what's to come
Or what has been before
Take me back home
Bring me to where all ends
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Idk why I’m counting the days at this point, not like this nightmare will ever end.
Charles Leclerc, you really do make the most heartaching music and I love you for that.
How much sorrow and grief did you put in that piece? I’ll take it, I’ll consume it all, thank you.
How much sorrow and grief did you put in that piece? I’ll take it, I’ll consume it all, thank you.
Come and take me down the dark beyond
And take me there where I come from
Take me down to the place where I'll kneel
And let me lay my shadow down
In through the eyes of a child's inner me
No pain to heal my bloodied brow
And I don't know where my home is now
This pain I will not cry aloud
Yeah reading a Maxiel fic where Daniel is dying while listening to Tom Odell in my current state of mind wasn’t the greatest choice but we all know how I love to suffer.
Because Daniel is fading away just in front of him and this is what I’m listening to:
Eating food was a big fucking mistake, I wish someone was always there to remind me how I’ll feel after so I wouldn’t do it.