What if all of this is just to get attention and I’m just a dramatic useless shit?
It’s so exhausting to always feel like you have to apologize for existing.
No it’s like I don’t think I deserve to be allowed near people. What do I have to offer except depression, disorders and emotional baggage?
It’s just that I keep thinking how everyone’s lives would be easier without me.
It gets so unbearable sometimes, like I swear I don’t wanna be this person, but I keep thinking, is all of this even real? Am I just seeking desperately for pity?
It’s not that I’m scared to let people in, I let them in and then I regret it because they don’t deservey messy existence in their life.
Maybe in another universe I don’t lose all my life to mental illness.