The most important document of this struggle is his 1734 “Letter to a Physician”, in which the medical denoscription of his condition, as M.A. Stewart puts it, “seems to be consciously modelled on George Cheyne’s The English Malady”

вернулся к философии Нового Времени в связи со своим преподаванием, но вместо философии сделал следующие выводы:

1) Декарт – невротик
2) Юм – истерик и attention whore
3) Ньютон – нарцисс

таков каждый философ.

ну что пойду читать это письмо

Here lay my greatest Calamity. I had no Hopes of delivering my Opinions with such Elegance & Neatness, as to draw to me the Attention of the World, and I would rather live and die in Obscurity than produce them maimed and imperfect.

СУКА


as to draw to me the Attention of the World – ну я был прав, attention whore as it is

(и конечно я абсолютно полностью relate)

в каком то смысле это обнадеживает

> Why, then, the reader may ask, add still another weighty tome to a useless overproduction?

че то все не туда и все невпопад

когда я пытаюсь объяснить причем тут логика:

> On the other hand, arguably everything we’re doing is logic.

https://golem.ph.utexas.edu/category/2012/11/freedom_from_logic.html

it just keeps getting worse

сейчас сижу за этим столом очень большое желание просто начать биться об него головой

Трудно быть менее привязанным к жизни, чем я теперь.

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Now that you found it
It's gone
Now that you feel it
You don't

впизду это все

не хочу уезжать
не хочу оставаться
не хочу умирать
не хочу унижаться

восхищаюсь своими друзьями

спокойнее всего мне всегда работалось в часа 4 ночи (или 5, как щас)

все спят и абсолютная тишина

вышел на улицу, сел на скамейку смотреть лекции

на небе видны звезды, но облака уже начинают освещаться солнечным светом

утро началось хуево, но жить хорошо (ну, вроде бы)

ну, или нет