MY BABIES 😭😭😭

Even though I'm pretty far from the concept of cisgender myself, discovering that not every afab person who's watched Heated Rivalry felt like they wanted to be them all of the time is insane

Like what do you mean you just wanted to be a fly on the wall and not live that experience yourself? You didn't wanna be a boy in love with another boy? Not even for like five minutes? Not even during the smiley face-offs on ice? Unreal

I'm not like super often dysphoric about my body (I am, but not all the way? Idk it's boring to think about tbh) and I don't always identify as masc or even wanna be a man.
But I just wanna be a boy kissing another boy
nonetheless :c

boys smooching 🥺

Unlikely to fuck but I can at least try to write hard write fast write badly 🙂‍↕️

Procrastinated too close to the sun and now holidays are over :(

BOSS, THE FASCISM.

hi

I am having slightly confusing gender thoughts and idk how to feel about them 🫡

Meanwhile, ping-ponging inside my skull:

"M-Boston?"

"wow, genetic"

"Yessssssss, beTTaH"

"W-wait, same?"

"No--
Ilya--
...gross"

"sounds rough 😡😡"

Shane Hollander get out of my head and take your cute little smile with you (don't)

Hi I need to ramble about Ilya sorry

No bc actually can we talk about this like I fuck with dom Ilya don't get me wrong but that man is a service top if I ever seen one and tbh I feel like with the stability of the relationship he could easily shift into a very absolutely desperately needy sub top and I swear it's not just because subby tops are my weakness this man is desperate he needs to be in there he gropes those tiddies like ambrosia is gonna drip from them at any given moment he gets an ounce of reassurance about their future and he crumbles cries breaks down confesses his undying love in two languages this man needs to carve his declaration of intent with his dick until Shane has wringed him dry how else do you think Ilya maintains that glorious bubble butt god

How do you guys explain to someone that knows nothing about fandom that being in fandom(s) is literally the only thing that kept you sane for the past year and a half

My personal close friend Shane Hollander

Acquisition of a new ship, stages:
- from 5 minutes to a few hours of uncertainty: the ship is nice but it can't possibly compete with my current OTP/hyperfixation
- 24 hours of revelation: I've seen the light
- from 7 to 10 business days of acceptance and fandom joy: I need to see them happy and consume so much about it the world is endless and fandom is a blessing
- from now on you're lowk insane about them
- a couple of days of chill headcanoning, vaguely thinking about creating fanwork
- after 2-3 weeks from the blorbos acquisition you start to itch and you wanna see them and make them suffer immensely
- after 3-6 months: reblogging any and every content about them
- living happily ever after or until ship retirement/freeze

"What's wrong with you?"

Idk probably the fact that at 16 this is what I considered the epitome of romance

https://tidal.com/track/65080737/u

My internal organs are all convulsing

Hey universe we're six days into 2026 where are my 48 hugs required to function properly?

People: complaining about music streaming services' discovery features sucking

Me in 2026:

I can't explain how much it makes my knees wobble when "sunshine" is used as a pet name 🫠