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https://news.1rj.ru/str/evrythingchanges/35944 تو ایران یکم وضع خرابه ولی خب🥹🥹🫰🫰

https://news.1rj.ru/str/evrythingchanges/9148 kinlist of pure angst

https://news.1rj.ru/str/evrythingchanges/36037 idk all of them but are you perhaps afraid of getting abandoned or being left out by people you love the most or people you care sm for because that happend countless times and sometimes you feel that you can't do anything about it cause it's just how life goes
Are you afraid of showing your anger cause you know what will happen next?😞..
Or do you perhaps feel "different" whenever people are around? Even sometimes when you're hanging out with your friends or just casually talking to them you feel being left out because of you different beliefs or views?
idk do you want to fix everything cause you feel you're also responsible for that??
Or you feel like you're never going to be enough for them?

Probably wrong cause idk half of them

https://news.1rj.ru/str/evrythingchanges/36042 I did this too and bitch called me OUT.

Power of friendship ahh

یاد امتحان انداختی منو من فردا دو تا امتحان دارم

Ouh lord we gon go deep into this one…

This is true
Honestly, I’ve gotten used to letting people go in the past years but only because I’ve been fucked over so many times so😭 expect everything I guess. I’m someone who’s like… really bad at expressing emotions and I’m very bad at it both verbally and physically but mostly verbally because I feel really uncomfortable with direct intimacy due to a certain SOMEONE in my family *looks at my mother* and I don’t really know the “right” way to care for someone so the small things that I do feel right or enough for me but maybe not for other people so some of the ways I give affection may seem colder and more “less” than the usual type. I resonate in the abandonment part with characters like Jinx, Namgyu, Marceline, Rue, Raven, Luna, Scaramouche and so on so forth, but when it comes to the emotions categories it’s mainly Neuvillette, Alastor, Megumi and so on so forth.
When it comes to showing my anger part it directly leads back to my avoidant-disorganized attachment tendencies because I don’t want to actually hurt someone because that’s so fucked up and mean?? So in harder situations I tend to distance myself to not lash out in front of a poor soul who doesn’t deserve it😭 again, Rue or Marceline for example.
When it comes to the feeling of being left out, I feel left out in pretty much everything tbh even when people try to make me included you sort of can’t prevent my immediate low mood as of now so-
OH and yeah fixing everything part- I sort of see it as my job to save someone and desperately try to see the good in all people even when I say I fucking hate them I don’t actually mean it until they do something horribly bad but even then I start thinking of the parts that made them “good” and how I failed to show that side of them more or if I didn’t do enough to make them be more comfortable w me - a saviour complex basically, characters like Fyodor.

Oh and not to mention characters with bad coping mechanism (Namgyu, Rue, Jack, Kazutora) whether it’s reckless behaviour, avoidance, emotional shutdown, more physical stuff like SH or choosing anything else BUT vulnerability

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