𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐬’ 𝐌𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 !
because that happend countless times and sometimes you feel that you can't do anything about it cause it's just how life goes
This is true
Honestly, I’ve gotten used to letting people go in the past years but only because I’ve been fucked over so many times so😭 expect everything I guess. I’m someone who’s like… really bad at expressing emotions and I’m very bad at it both verbally and physically but mostly verbally because I feel really uncomfortable with direct intimacy due to a certain SOMEONE in my family *looks at my mother* and I don’t really know the “right” way to care for someone so the small things that I do feel right or enough for me but maybe not for other people so some of the ways I give affection may seem colder and more “less” than the usual type. I resonate in the abandonment part with characters like Jinx, Namgyu, Marceline, Rue, Raven, Luna, Scaramouche and so on so forth, but when it comes to the emotions categories it’s mainly Neuvillette, Alastor, Megumi and so on so forth.
When it comes to showing my anger part it directly leads back to my avoidant-disorganized attachment tendencies because I don’t want to actually hurt someone because that’s so fucked up and mean?? So in harder situations I tend to distance myself to not lash out in front of a poor soul who doesn’t deserve it😭 again, Rue or Marceline for example.
When it comes to the feeling of being left out, I feel left out in pretty much everything tbh even when people try to make me included you sort of can’t prevent my immediate low mood as of now so-
OH and yeah fixing everything part- I sort of see it as my job to save someone and desperately try to see the good in all people even when I say I fucking hate them I don’t actually mean it until they do something horribly bad but even then I start thinking of the parts that made them “good” and how I failed to show that side of them more or if I didn’t do enough to make them be more comfortable w me - a saviour complex basically, characters like Fyodor.
Honestly, I’ve gotten used to letting people go in the past years but only because I’ve been fucked over so many times so😭 expect everything I guess. I’m someone who’s like… really bad at expressing emotions and I’m very bad at it both verbally and physically but mostly verbally because I feel really uncomfortable with direct intimacy due to a certain SOMEONE in my family *looks at my mother* and I don’t really know the “right” way to care for someone so the small things that I do feel right or enough for me but maybe not for other people so some of the ways I give affection may seem colder and more “less” than the usual type. I resonate in the abandonment part with characters like Jinx, Namgyu, Marceline, Rue, Raven, Luna, Scaramouche and so on so forth, but when it comes to the emotions categories it’s mainly Neuvillette, Alastor, Megumi and so on so forth.
When it comes to showing my anger part it directly leads back to my avoidant-disorganized attachment tendencies because I don’t want to actually hurt someone because that’s so fucked up and mean?? So in harder situations I tend to distance myself to not lash out in front of a poor soul who doesn’t deserve it😭 again, Rue or Marceline for example.
When it comes to the feeling of being left out, I feel left out in pretty much everything tbh even when people try to make me included you sort of can’t prevent my immediate low mood as of now so-
OH and yeah fixing everything part- I sort of see it as my job to save someone and desperately try to see the good in all people even when I say I fucking hate them I don’t actually mean it until they do something horribly bad but even then I start thinking of the parts that made them “good” and how I failed to show that side of them more or if I didn’t do enough to make them be more comfortable w me - a saviour complex basically, characters like Fyodor.
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Oh and not to mention characters with bad coping mechanism (Namgyu, Rue, Jack, Kazutora) whether it’s reckless behaviour, avoidance, emotional shutdown, more physical stuff like SH or choosing anything else BUT vulnerability
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Love In A Bottle
Hazbin Hotel, Keith David, Lilli Cooper, Kimiko Glenn, Krystina…
Get the top shelf, double rocks, pour the Scotch
I've missed the tune of tumblers clinking
Deal me in, kick the sin up a notch
Divin' in quicksand's faster than sinkin'
I'm leavin' behind all of the cares that I've been overthinkin'
Find friends in my wine
Stay unaware's just as long as I'm drinking
Love in a bottle, love in a bottle
Don't need love when it comes in a bottle
Strut when you're bluffin', double or nothin'
Lap it up, laugh it up, la, la, la, la
Love is in the ice of the beholder
Gin never lies or fucks you over
It goes down the same every time
You need someone to hand your chips
Go all in and abandon ship
You're jumpin' for the water, and it's all 100 proof
Love in a bottle, love in a bottle
Don't need love when it comes in a bottle
Strut when you're bluffin', double or nothin'
Lap it up, laugh it up, la, la, la, la
I've missed the tune of tumblers clinking
Deal me in, kick the sin up a notch
Divin' in quicksand's faster than sinkin'
I'm leavin' behind all of the cares that I've been overthinkin'
Find friends in my wine
Stay unaware's just as long as I'm drinking
Love in a bottle, love in a bottle
Don't need love when it comes in a bottle
Strut when you're bluffin', double or nothin'
Lap it up, laugh it up, la, la, la, la
Love is in the ice of the beholder
Gin never lies or fucks you over
It goes down the same every time
You need someone to hand your chips
Go all in and abandon ship
You're jumpin' for the water, and it's all 100 proof
Love in a bottle, love in a bottle
Don't need love when it comes in a bottle
Strut when you're bluffin', double or nothin'
Lap it up, laugh it up, la, la, la, la
Gravity
Hazbin Hotel, Jessica Vosk, Alex Brightman, Sam Haft, Andrew Underberg
Storm's comin', I can see the clouds
No runnin's gonna save you now
And hard rain is gonna fall down like gravity
Like gravity
Eye for an eye says you owe me a debt
Blood demands blood, gonna get my hands wet
The flood's comin', now you can bet on tragedy
Like gravity
No runnin's gonna save you now
And hard rain is gonna fall down like gravity
Like gravity
Eye for an eye says you owe me a debt
Blood demands blood, gonna get my hands wet
The flood's comin', now you can bet on tragedy
Like gravity
Studying for biology rn and reading about vaccines but then I remember there are actual people out there who believe vaccines cause autism and don’t get their fucking children vaccinated then are shocked when they catch diseases so early on and won’t heal as properly and fucking die.
Btw you can’t “catch” autism. Autism is around 80% genetic 🤓 or by brain damage as a kid/environmental factors