Putting all of that aside
I’m looking for something
or maybe it’s better to say, someone
A friend who truly understands me,
and lets me understand them too
That part being allowed to understand them matters a lot
One sided connections are honestly ridiculous......

But it’s too late now
I’ve reached the very end of what I can endure
I’ve come to the end of the road
All I see in front of me is a tall wall
I don’t see a way out

The only thing I feel I can do
is collapse into a corner,
die,
and slowly fall apart

The philosophy behind this place is the same
Azizi’s warm corner
On the surface, it means a warm corner belonging to Azizi
But the real meaning is this:
this is my corner of falling apart
The only place I have
The only thing I have left

The pain I carry started when I was five,
when I was first thrown into society
I kept telling myself, over and over,
This too shall pass
But it didn’t
It grew
More and more.
So when does this pass?

Where exactly is this damn passing everyone talks about?

Damn all those fake, empty hopeful sentences

Nothing is going to pass
It’s only going to get worse and worse,
until it finally leads to death

I tried many times to get rid of myself
From pushing a heated knife into my hand when I was 16,
to trying to throw myself from the fifth floor of a building
But either it didn’t happen because of my bad luck,
or if it was about to happen, they forcibly stopped it
I wish I lived in countries
where I could legally end this life by air injection.

If things keep going like this,
I seriously doubt I’ll make it to twenty

I’m sorry for burdening you with my words first thing in the morning
I wanted to write in Persian,
but unfortunately, because of my childhood,
I can’t really express my emotions well in Persian

And in the end,
goodbye

به روباه میگن شاهدت کیه؟ میگه دممه...

And I can't sleep, the voices in my head, they keep me up

ریواچش الان میصرفد

نصف قسمت اول ریواچ شد
و خب......
هعییییییییییییییییییییییی
تا شب کامل ریواچش میکنم

با توجه به اینکه سر ویدیوش هم یه دور ریواچش کردم
یه دورم برای ادیت ریواچ کردم
الانم یه بار
میشه فاکینگ 3 بار ریواچ و هر بار تحلیل های جدیدتر بر پایه پختگی ای که زندگی بهم داد نسبت به این اثر میاد توی ذهنم :)

پسررررر الان حس هینا رو توی بلوباکس میتونم کامل درک کنم