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me core this summer

average mood cycle of a borderline person aka me aka my mood swings today:

tw: mentions of unaliving oneself

- wake up ready to die (in a “kill me now” way, not in a “i’m going to slay this monster and i don’t care if it kills me” way)
- kinda productive and ready to conquer the world
- horny AS FUCK
- normal..?
- still normal? doing stuff, chillin
- suddenly very very tired
- lowkey splitting?
- SUICIDAL IDEATION
- please kill me now i can’t live here anymore, im not ok, i wish i could cry so hard my eyes would bleed
- oh ok so i went outside to chill and breathing helps
- i’m super fucking tired
- eating and coming back to my senses
- im fine! cracking jokes! back to normal!
- im great! jamming!
- im the hottest person alive
- im going to throw up
- took a shower and ate. finally feeling somewhat relaxed
- talked to my partner about what i’m going through and felt very very safe. i’m so grateful to have them

so bpd is just emotional werewolf but every 2 hours instead of every full moon

imma update this until i go to sleep cause i need to show this to my doctor