Evan Buckley you are better than me. Cause if I was talking about something I was excited about and then everyone just stared at me like that, I’d run away to a corner and cry and then take six to eight months being comfortable to speak again

what abra said honestly 🙏

cause like i also get super excited over the smallest things and i'm loud and energetic af with the people i'm comfortable with and 90% of the time they do NOT match my energy because they simply do not HAVE that level of energy 😭

does it upset me? yes. does it burst my bubble a little? also yes.
but is it their fault? are they obligated to match 100% of my energy? no.
am i an overly sensitive person? absolutely.

and whenever that happens i do get a little bit sad but i've worked on it for long enough that now i just move past it and continue on with whatever i was saying and the hurt never lasts longer than a few minutes.

وای بعضی وقتا انقدر راجع به این سریال آشغالی یپ دارم که دستم میره روی وویس مسیج بعد اینطوریم که نه صبر کن آروم باش 🙏

but like on twitter i keep seeing people saying that the team was being mean to buck in that scene? they were being a bit weird yes, but not necessarily mean?😭
it's been feeling like this for quite a while now that a lot of the things that happen, the dialogues, the weird dynamics, etc, all feel a lot more like bad writing than the characters' fault.

like in that cookie scene when buck kept going on about how he'd been trying to recreate bobby's recipe for someone in that room to finally go "oh yeah i remember what you're talking about" and then none of them did, it just felt like bad writing.

because like, that's his family, those are his friends, his people, they've been through heaven and hell together for too many years to now treat each other like this. people are pissed because yes, the 118 that we know WOULDN'T behave that way. they wouldn't treat each other that way.

and it's the LACK of any real interactions that feels so unsettling. the absence of the amazing chemistry that used to be there.

we could connect that to bobby's death or something but the point i was trying to make is that

in that cookie scene, eddie complimented the cookies, hen also complimented the cookies, ravi teased buck, and even chimney's comment about how bobby was good at not talking about baking, while it could be interpreted as him telling buck to shut up, it could also just be interpreted as chim being his usual sarcastic and teasing self.

i'm not justifying what he said because yeah it was a bit weird but it felt a LOT more like the writers' fault that the character's.

and then all of them sighing when buck told them about how it was bobby who helped him didn't feel that different from all the times that they get superstitious except this time it's about bobby and it's a more delicate and serious matter that none of them is ready to really face yet.

but while they're all tiptoing around it, buck is neck deep in it. wanting bobby to be haunting his house and wanting to believe he's still there with them in some way, while the rest of them have accepted the fact that he's gone and they just haven't healed from the grief enough to openly and comfortably talk about bobby like buck seems to do in their eyes.

چقدر یپ کردم شرمسار شدم ببخشید😭 (قراره بازم اتفاق بیوفته)

نمیدانم شاید من هم در دانیالم و کارم اشتباهه ولی یه سری وقتا اینطوریم که هرچقدرم یه رفتاری که از کرکتر میبینم بد باشه و ناراحتم کنه بازم فحشش رو به کرکتر میدم چون در حین اینکه میخوام‌ خاک تو سرش بشه ولی اینم میدونم که هیچکدوم این کرکترا بی نقص نیستن.

ولی بعضی وقتای دیگه یه سری چیزا انقدر عجیبن که بخوامم نمیتونم تقصیر خود اون کرکتر بدونمش و از ماتریکس پرت میشم بیرون و اینطوریم که این دیگه چه رایتینگ زباله‌ایه.

و راجع به 90% این فصل همین بودم فعلا 🙏

نمیدونم مثلا منظورتون چیه که هری پسر گنده شعورش نرسید لباس بابی رو به عنوان کاستوم هالووین نپوشه؟؟؟

یا منظورتون چیه که وقتی آبولا مرد به باک هیچی نگفتن و کنار بست فرندش و کریس نبود؟