I don’t think my job is just to sit cute and pretty for everyone to enjoy. My job is to do what the fuck I like and look how I want it

የ እራሷ አሮባት የሰውን ታማስላለች

Even though I am taking my time to explore my reality, I am supposed to answer this now, but I may be uncertain because I don't know. Reality can be difficult to find and describe for people. People often seek beliefs that resonate with them, and their understanding of reality is shaped by what makes sense to them. When they start to explore, ask questions, and satisfy their curiosity, they may find answers from various sources—history, stories, or individuals who have dedicated their lives to research. This exploration can lead to countless theories in response to their inquiries.

Additionally, there are answers within our subconscious that we may not even be aware of, shaped by our experiences and knowledge. When we engage in self-reflection, we often tap into this deeper part of our mind. There may be people who define reality based on their success, but for me, I don’t think so. I don’t have a reality because what I call success can turn into failure in the next few days. So, I don’t know.

Let’s say someone identifies as an atheist; it doesn't imply ignorance of the facts; rather, it indicates that they are on a journey of exploration. They are actively questioning and seeking understanding. If the Big Bang theory resonates with them more than other explanations, their beliefs and perspectives will naturally be influenced by that understanding. Importantly, their quest for knowledge doesn't stop; they continue to ask and explore. Similarly, for those who find their truth in the concept of super.... that belief shapes their understanding of reality in a profound way.

Ultimately, whether one identifies as an atheist or a theist, the underlying theme is the pursuit of meaning and clarity in a complex world. This journey is not just about finding definitive answers but also about embracing the questions that arise along the way. Each individual’s path is unique, colored by personal experiences and insights that contribute to a broader tapestry of human understanding. In this ongoing quest, we may discover that uncertainty itself can be a valuable part of our reality, fostering growth and deeper connections with ourselves and others.

I dress in a way that feels like normal or call it carefree 
So you can see me beyond the cloth I wear.  ☺️
Don’t ask me what “normal” means philosophically,
For I know it’s a shifting concept,  
A fleeting idea that changes with the light. 🤷‍♀️

I choose to appear indifferent,  
To let you glimpse the essence of who I am,  
Not defined by possessions or appearances.  
I try to sound smart,hoping to impress,  
Yet you remind me that wisdom is vast, 😪
And knowing is a journey, not a destination. 

You say it’s beautiful when people are them selves ,

So I try to be myself—  
The self I’m still discovering,
The self filled with questions and doubts,  
Yearning for release from unnecessary thoughts .....
But then you say you don’t like it.  
Didn’t you just say we should be ourselves?  


But in my quest for authenticity,  
I find myself lost in your expectations,  
Changing my voice, my style, my essence,  
All to fit a mold that doesn’t feel right.  
In the end, the self I seek slips away,  
Drowned in the desire for approval and acceptance.  

So here I stand, longing for the truth of me,  
The raw, unfiltered version of my spirit,  
Yet caught in the web of how I’m perceived—  
And wondering if the self I chase will ever be enough.🤔