Years ago, I applied for an F-1 visa and received my I-20. I was so excited about going to a university in the U.S. that I said goodbye to my friends and family, thinking I would definitely get the visa. I prepared a lot, learning the language and working on my communication skills. My grandma and I were confident everything would go well, but unfortunately, I was rejected. It was really tough—more painful than a breakup!🤭

The second time, I hoped things would be different, but I got rejected again. This time, it didn’t hurt as much as the first.

By the third I was more relaxed and didn’t dress up too much for the interview. When I saw others getting rejected, I realized many of them were older and didn’t know how to handle it. Some were red-faced or even crying, and I felt for them.(I send a 🤗)

For me tho , I had learned

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not to expect too much because high expectations can lead to disappointment. As long as I tried my best, 🤷‍♀️I knew I couldn’t control what someone else decided.

In the end, it’s all part of the journey! 😂

Timing 🍹

"Let's have a snack!"

(Me panicking: Should I admit my favorite snack is cucumber 🥒salad? 🌝)

Ever Remember?

Do you remember the day I said,  
"I want to be a soldier," with a heart so bold?💜
I was just a child, brimming with unknown hope,  
Dreaming of protecting my country🇪🇹,  
Loving it with a purity only youth can hold.  
You smiled, saying, "Such a thought, beautiful in its innocence.🌝"  

But then I came again, my dreams had changed—  
"I want to be a doctor," I told you this time.  
People were hurting, and I wanted to heal,  
Even to cure the pain you endured in silence.  
You didn’t say much, just, "Such a sweet child."  

Again, I returned with yet another dream.  
"I think I’ll be a pilot!" I said,  
Drawn to physics, to planes soaring the skies,  
Believing I’d found my passion.  
You listened, never tired, never mocking,  
Patient with my endless dreams.  

And then, I spoke of psychiatry—  
Of helping minds find peace and clarity.  
"Are you sure?" you asked gently.  
But like all the others, that too passed.  

One day, I sent you a voicemail, singing,  
"Maybe I’ll be a singer," lol.  
And remember when war found us trapped?  
I scribbled politics on scraps of paper,  
Reading you lines, asking for your thoughts.  
You never told me my dreams were small  
Or that I was too small to dream them.  
You let me wander, explore, grow.  
You let me live my journey.  

But then, as I grew older,  
I stopped coming to you with my dreams.  
I told you only, "I’m studying."  
You didn’t ask why, not like before.  
Perhaps you thought I was mature now,  
That I no longer needed your curiosity.  

But fool that I am, I wish you’d asked.  
Because the truth is, I don’t know why.🤷‍♀️
I don’t know what I’m searching for,  
What I’m chasing in the silence of this path.  

Now, I sit and think of those days.  
The dreams I never became,  
The questions I didn’t ask,  
The choices I let slip away.  
And yet, you taught me one enduring truth:  
To let others be, as they are,  
To dream their own dreams,  
To follow their own journeys.🥰

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Sometimes a deadline it self pushes you to complete the entire document in just one night😒 this is the result of procrastination ...

Watching 3blue1brown YouTube vid ...to understand the chaos theory (cos ofc it looks beautiful lol )and ended up confused 🫥by the chaos of math 😭

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-psychology-of-your-20s/id1573710078?i=1000675688514

Morning 💜

U middle child ?? this is for u lol 😆(the forgotten one 😓)

"class is canceled due to personal reasons, we deeply apologize."

U don't have to apologize for making some of us happy btw☺️

“best of the year “according to my phone
2024🦋🦋💜❣️🎀🌈

https://youtu.be/UTtbOGRfG9E


got to study a sub that is not my fav at all ,let's gooo lol🤧

Damn ,I need a car 😭..

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◀️◀️ I gotta work hard 😉

When I was grade 1 I sang this song In front of the class (music class or smth )lmao 😂
And got it now while listening some old songs
Ngl, it is still lit 🔥

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=W7ppd_RY-UE
Today’s YouTube first recommendation💻