Forwarded from Adolf Nigler’s Autism
I’m quitting thugging:
I stand by my position that thugging is good for the White race, but I don’t think it’s good for my soul to be doing this. Recently I’ve been planning out how I’m eventually going to find a wife, and I think about the type of girl I like and I don’t think she’d approve of me sending people gay nigger porn. I have resorted to very grimey dirty strategies against the Jews, and I don’t mind if others follow I in my footsteps but I need to grow up. I’m tired of living in the gutter. I’m tired of doing this.
I think a lot about when I was young before I was traumatized by modernity, when I was pure of heart, and back then I would have found thugging disgusting, therefore I shouldn’t do it. This behavior is a cope: I’m justifiably enraged at the Jews for what they did to me and my people and thugging is an act of sadism to inflict the same sort of trauma they inflict upon me by making me live in a degenerate society. I don’t think this act of resistance is evil but I must stop to move on with my life. I must focus my mind onto my career and onto starting a family, for these two things are much greater acts of resistance than spamming gay nigger porn at Jews.
I’ve always wanted to be able to return to who I was back then and do life over. A few days ago I had a dream where I started life over at age 9 but my life wasn’t stolen from me by my father’s suicide and my mom going crazy. In my dream I instead I grew up with perfect parents and everything went right. I got to grow up and live as the man I could have been. I got to feel the feelings I should feel. I’ve decided that I’m going to act like that man. I will do what I would do if I were that person, for that is the only way I can become that person. Ever since this dream I haven’t gotten any joy from thugging. I imagine the girl of my dreams watching me asking: “What the fuck are you doing!” It’s time to grow up and stop being this weirdo on telegram.
I’m also going to stop posting on Neolebensborne unit. I haven’t jerked off in years, but I still don’t think it’s healthy to stare at photos of hot girls all the time. I was obsessively collecting them on my phone like a harem. I couldn’t make myself delete them until today. It was pathological. I’m going to leave up the channel but I won’t upload. If someone else wants to be co-admin and upload message me. I do think someone needs to be running a high quality girls/aesthetics channel.
I quit drugs and porn in 2022. I’ve improved myself a lot from the train wreck I was back then. I am a much much better person than I was, but I feel that these last 1.5 years I’ve stagnated in my development. I’ve gathered immense amounts of knowledge about myself and figured out what to do, but I have failed to change out of laziness and compromise. I have used my intellect to create a series of rationalizations of bad behaviors I must stop. I explain away how what I’m doing is ok, when deep down I know it’s bad and I have to stop.
The one thing I still might do is the Nazi erotica since I feel that would work wonders for our race. In for a penny in for a pound, I’m not going to go full moral fag before the best part of me using my fucked up brain to do good.
I would like to make an AI, Mecha-Nigler that carry’s on my legacy waging psychosexual warfare on the Jews without my participation.
I stand by my position that thugging is good for the White race, but I don’t think it’s good for my soul to be doing this. Recently I’ve been planning out how I’m eventually going to find a wife, and I think about the type of girl I like and I don’t think she’d approve of me sending people gay nigger porn. I have resorted to very grimey dirty strategies against the Jews, and I don’t mind if others follow I in my footsteps but I need to grow up. I’m tired of living in the gutter. I’m tired of doing this.
I think a lot about when I was young before I was traumatized by modernity, when I was pure of heart, and back then I would have found thugging disgusting, therefore I shouldn’t do it. This behavior is a cope: I’m justifiably enraged at the Jews for what they did to me and my people and thugging is an act of sadism to inflict the same sort of trauma they inflict upon me by making me live in a degenerate society. I don’t think this act of resistance is evil but I must stop to move on with my life. I must focus my mind onto my career and onto starting a family, for these two things are much greater acts of resistance than spamming gay nigger porn at Jews.
I’ve always wanted to be able to return to who I was back then and do life over. A few days ago I had a dream where I started life over at age 9 but my life wasn’t stolen from me by my father’s suicide and my mom going crazy. In my dream I instead I grew up with perfect parents and everything went right. I got to grow up and live as the man I could have been. I got to feel the feelings I should feel. I’ve decided that I’m going to act like that man. I will do what I would do if I were that person, for that is the only way I can become that person. Ever since this dream I haven’t gotten any joy from thugging. I imagine the girl of my dreams watching me asking: “What the fuck are you doing!” It’s time to grow up and stop being this weirdo on telegram.
I’m also going to stop posting on Neolebensborne unit. I haven’t jerked off in years, but I still don’t think it’s healthy to stare at photos of hot girls all the time. I was obsessively collecting them on my phone like a harem. I couldn’t make myself delete them until today. It was pathological. I’m going to leave up the channel but I won’t upload. If someone else wants to be co-admin and upload message me. I do think someone needs to be running a high quality girls/aesthetics channel.
I quit drugs and porn in 2022. I’ve improved myself a lot from the train wreck I was back then. I am a much much better person than I was, but I feel that these last 1.5 years I’ve stagnated in my development. I’ve gathered immense amounts of knowledge about myself and figured out what to do, but I have failed to change out of laziness and compromise. I have used my intellect to create a series of rationalizations of bad behaviors I must stop. I explain away how what I’m doing is ok, when deep down I know it’s bad and I have to stop.
The one thing I still might do is the Nazi erotica since I feel that would work wonders for our race. In for a penny in for a pound, I’m not going to go full moral fag before the best part of me using my fucked up brain to do good.
I would like to make an AI, Mecha-Nigler that carry’s on my legacy waging psychosexual warfare on the Jews without my participation.
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gingers used to be 12 foot tall nephilim warriors who entered the world in an invasion from a parallel realm through portals like world of warcraft orcs and nearly subjugated the entire world with magic energy weapons, jews-pythagoreans-freemasons-jesuits-rosicrucians invented materialist soyence so that nobody would ever remember this and destroy the world again
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Forwarded from Voter Apathy Party
Voter Apathy Party's main admin has been killed by Steve Franssen. We will continue to post, but keep in mind that we can no longer receive donations, as all such things were tied to his account.
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the lion does not concern himself with numbers on a screen
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Forwarded from So far, so good (Νέκιτ)
every time I see Nick "Ugly Spick" Fuentes, I do understand things
hoodies and those weird baseball caps are modern equivalent of peasant cold designed to hide disfigured skull and other fucked up things
hoodies and those weird baseball caps are modern equivalent of peasant cold designed to hide disfigured skull and other fucked up things
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I just told my mom about the poor people hoodie phenomena and she said it made sense
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