Occasion for a moment’s despair,’ he thought, ‘if I’d been standing here purely by chance, and not from choice’.

Shinzo wo sasagayo

No other life forms know they are alive, and neither do they know they will die. This is our curse alone. Without this hex upon our heads, we would never have withdrawn as far as we have from the natural—so far and for such a time that it is a relief to say what we have been trying with our all not to say: We have long since been denizens of the natural world. Everywhere around us are natural habitats, but within us is the shiver of startling and dreadful things. Simply put: We are not from here. If we vanished tomorrow, no organism on this planet would miss us. Nothing in nature needs us.

- Thomas Ligotti, The Conspiracy Against the Human Race

"The worst part about anything that's self destructive is that it's so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive."

Holidays

The Conspiracy against the Human Race by Thomas Ligotti

Felt.

Note to self 6

Be alone, trust no one but yourself, EMBRACE IT.

"If truth is what you seek, then the examined life will only take you on a long ride to the limits of solitude and leave you by the side of the road with your truth and nothing else."