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Women, this is for you!
Many years ago I discovered that my name means "warrior" and it has been a journey coming to terms with my warrior
In a world where wars have been started to seize more power, control and resources, while also perpetuating poverty, slavery, division and trauma cycles, it's no wonder women have forsaken their own inner warrior
A couple of years ago I was sitting in the forest with a sister about to go into a guided meditation to get in touch with Gaia. As soon as I closed my eyes I saw her, my own warrior and it jolted me!
I opened my eyes back up and told my sister what I had seen and that I was scared, I wasn't ready to face her
Since I was a child I had stood up to bullies, my step dad being the first
Every day was a battle field in my home with my step dad berating and belittling us, shaming us with his words and hands, reminding us of how stupid and rebellious we were, while I watched him do the same to my mom
I remember one time screaming over their fights, "Why are you always fighting?!" His response, "It's all because of you, you little bitch!"
There was no safe place to speak out truth, or demand integrity, and so I buried this righteous rage within and watched it explode onto other innocent bystanders at school, work, in friendships and loverships, you name it
I was fierce, and lacking a healthy way of expressing this righteous rage
Decades pass by and I'm labeled all sorts of things: violent, bully, out of control, girl with daddy issues
Fuck that!
The TRUTH is that innocence had been violently violated and I didn't have the ability as a child to voice that, nor ask for help
Let's go for a reframe, shall we?
Fast forward to this vision, my sister says, "You've got this, let's go in and see what's there. I've got you."
I went back in and immediately saw a warrior woman dressed in full armor on top of her horse, sword drawn with blood dripping off of it, screaming the battle cry, and charging full speed ahead.
Images of women's pregnant bellies ripped open, women and children running and screaming in terror, and carnage everywhere
What was I witnessing? Was this my doing? What have I done?
As I continued to observe the scene, I realized I was actually in battle protecting those that were being senselessly murdered
There wasn’t space for kumbaya, bypassing positive thinking, flashing my tits and ass in the name of spirituality, a spiritual fluffy quote that does nothing to protect those being murdered, or waiting for someone to come rescue us
It was time for fucken battle!
I came out of the meditation and wept
For so long I had believed the lie that my warrior wasn’t safe, that she was senselessly harming people and unable to be controlled
That couldn’t be further from the truth
Her fierce presence and righteous rage inspired her action to protect innocence and life
Woman, remember that your inner warrior Kali is not a senseless destroyer seeking to have power over just for the fucken sake of it
She is committed to revealing truth, protecting innocence, and rebirthing from this space
Which brings me to my next point: rise up in your power and own inner integrity
We’ve been talking so long about how the masculine is not meeting us, how we cannot feel their warrior, how we do not feel held, safe or seen
And yet so many continue to bend down and coddle them in their distortions, excuse making, lack of integrity, and refusal to have a backbone
Do not bend any longer
Cut. That. Fucken. Head. Off!
Stop it right in its tracks
Stand in truth
Stand in presence
Stand in integrity
Stand for innocence to be protected
Stand tall in all your Divine wisdom and strength and invite him to meet you there
If we desire to rebirth this world, we must accept our inner Kali warrior wisdom
#FeminineRising #MasculineRising #StandInYourPower #StandInYourWisdom #BodyIntelligence #Consciousness #Enlightenment
Women, this is for you!
Many years ago I discovered that my name means "warrior" and it has been a journey coming to terms with my warrior
In a world where wars have been started to seize more power, control and resources, while also perpetuating poverty, slavery, division and trauma cycles, it's no wonder women have forsaken their own inner warrior
A couple of years ago I was sitting in the forest with a sister about to go into a guided meditation to get in touch with Gaia. As soon as I closed my eyes I saw her, my own warrior and it jolted me!
I opened my eyes back up and told my sister what I had seen and that I was scared, I wasn't ready to face her
Since I was a child I had stood up to bullies, my step dad being the first
Every day was a battle field in my home with my step dad berating and belittling us, shaming us with his words and hands, reminding us of how stupid and rebellious we were, while I watched him do the same to my mom
I remember one time screaming over their fights, "Why are you always fighting?!" His response, "It's all because of you, you little bitch!"
There was no safe place to speak out truth, or demand integrity, and so I buried this righteous rage within and watched it explode onto other innocent bystanders at school, work, in friendships and loverships, you name it
I was fierce, and lacking a healthy way of expressing this righteous rage
Decades pass by and I'm labeled all sorts of things: violent, bully, out of control, girl with daddy issues
Fuck that!
The TRUTH is that innocence had been violently violated and I didn't have the ability as a child to voice that, nor ask for help
Let's go for a reframe, shall we?
Fast forward to this vision, my sister says, "You've got this, let's go in and see what's there. I've got you."
I went back in and immediately saw a warrior woman dressed in full armor on top of her horse, sword drawn with blood dripping off of it, screaming the battle cry, and charging full speed ahead.
Images of women's pregnant bellies ripped open, women and children running and screaming in terror, and carnage everywhere
What was I witnessing? Was this my doing? What have I done?
As I continued to observe the scene, I realized I was actually in battle protecting those that were being senselessly murdered
There wasn’t space for kumbaya, bypassing positive thinking, flashing my tits and ass in the name of spirituality, a spiritual fluffy quote that does nothing to protect those being murdered, or waiting for someone to come rescue us
It was time for fucken battle!
I came out of the meditation and wept
For so long I had believed the lie that my warrior wasn’t safe, that she was senselessly harming people and unable to be controlled
That couldn’t be further from the truth
Her fierce presence and righteous rage inspired her action to protect innocence and life
Woman, remember that your inner warrior Kali is not a senseless destroyer seeking to have power over just for the fucken sake of it
She is committed to revealing truth, protecting innocence, and rebirthing from this space
Which brings me to my next point: rise up in your power and own inner integrity
We’ve been talking so long about how the masculine is not meeting us, how we cannot feel their warrior, how we do not feel held, safe or seen
And yet so many continue to bend down and coddle them in their distortions, excuse making, lack of integrity, and refusal to have a backbone
Do not bend any longer
Cut. That. Fucken. Head. Off!
Stop it right in its tracks
Stand in truth
Stand in presence
Stand in integrity
Stand for innocence to be protected
Stand tall in all your Divine wisdom and strength and invite him to meet you there
If we desire to rebirth this world, we must accept our inner Kali warrior wisdom
#FeminineRising #MasculineRising #StandInYourPower #StandInYourWisdom #BodyIntelligence #Consciousness #Enlightenment
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Light Working and Shadow Hunting: Two Sides of the Same Coin
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If our bodies have been shaped by the circumstances we've been through and have caused misalignments, pain and disease, you better believe that the collective misalignments, pain and disease are caused by A LOT that's still lurking in the individual and collective shadows
Any true light worker will tell you that the path to their own ascension has been facing their shadows...fiercely, relentlessly, and with a love so pure that it will no longer tolerate what's harming them
There is a perversion in the spiritual community of focusing on love and light that is bypassing facing what is in the darkness
The true spiritual work is to boldly taking that light of yours, and shining it into your own shadows to uproot and transmute what's there
It is only from this place of self response-ability that we will then be able to attune ourselves to the darkness in the world and ACTIVELY uproot it
No amount of positive thinking and focusing on love and light will save us, it's time to partner that love and light with ACTION
No more bypassing, we are going through the birthing canal and it is an interactive process
#MasculineRising #FeminineRising #NoMoreBypassing #LoveAndLight #ShadowWork #Embodiment #Rewilding #TogetherWeRise #AscensionStartsWithin #TogetherWeThrive #WeAreTheOnesWeveBeenWaitingFor #ManUp #WomanUp #FiresOfTransmutation
If our bodies have been shaped by the circumstances we've been through and have caused misalignments, pain and disease, you better believe that the collective misalignments, pain and disease are caused by A LOT that's still lurking in the individual and collective shadows
Any true light worker will tell you that the path to their own ascension has been facing their shadows...fiercely, relentlessly, and with a love so pure that it will no longer tolerate what's harming them
There is a perversion in the spiritual community of focusing on love and light that is bypassing facing what is in the darkness
The true spiritual work is to boldly taking that light of yours, and shining it into your own shadows to uproot and transmute what's there
It is only from this place of self response-ability that we will then be able to attune ourselves to the darkness in the world and ACTIVELY uproot it
No amount of positive thinking and focusing on love and light will save us, it's time to partner that love and light with ACTION
No more bypassing, we are going through the birthing canal and it is an interactive process
#MasculineRising #FeminineRising #NoMoreBypassing #LoveAndLight #ShadowWork #Embodiment #Rewilding #TogetherWeRise #AscensionStartsWithin #TogetherWeThrive #WeAreTheOnesWeveBeenWaitingFor #ManUp #WomanUp #FiresOfTransmutation
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I had a conversation with a brother months ago and he was expressing how he just desires a woman to love him for who he is
I asked him just how deep he'd gone into understanding why he is the way he is, and if he's fully loved himself there?
See, we often think that if someone would just love me, if someone would just accept me, then I'll magically feel better about myself and everything will fall into place
The truth is we attract those who mirror our level of self-love and maturity because that's what we feel we are worth
If you are not willing to face your shadows
If you are not willing to seek to understand yourself
If you are not willing to hold yourself in this vulnerability
And if you are not willing to love yourself into wholeness
Then you will attract the same distortions in relationships
Go deeper
Build that resonance of love within you
And you will attract the love you desire BECAUSE you have first given it to yourself
#Rewilding #DeepAndDeeper #BodyLanguage #GettingInTouch #BornLove #BornInnocent #ComeBackHomeToYou #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor #YouAreTheAlchemistOfYourLife #BornLight #YouAreLove #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreLight #YouArePower #SelfLove #InternalEnergetics #InternalAscension
I had a conversation with a brother months ago and he was expressing how he just desires a woman to love him for who he is
I asked him just how deep he'd gone into understanding why he is the way he is, and if he's fully loved himself there?
See, we often think that if someone would just love me, if someone would just accept me, then I'll magically feel better about myself and everything will fall into place
The truth is we attract those who mirror our level of self-love and maturity because that's what we feel we are worth
If you are not willing to face your shadows
If you are not willing to seek to understand yourself
If you are not willing to hold yourself in this vulnerability
And if you are not willing to love yourself into wholeness
Then you will attract the same distortions in relationships
Go deeper
Build that resonance of love within you
And you will attract the love you desire BECAUSE you have first given it to yourself
#Rewilding #DeepAndDeeper #BodyLanguage #GettingInTouch #BornLove #BornInnocent #ComeBackHomeToYou #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor #YouAreTheAlchemistOfYourLife #BornLight #YouAreLove #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreLight #YouArePower #SelfLove #InternalEnergetics #InternalAscension
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@jayadeviandco was one of those random IG connections, turned insta-friend🙌🏼
A few chats back and forth and I could feel she was carrying a lot and just needed a sister to hold some space
We had some mutual connections in Canada, and I could feel the purity of her heart, so I opened my heart and home and invited her over for some cacao
The intention was to just listen, and it organically turned into a healing session. Kudos to Jaya for her courage to open up!
We moved through an exercise I love called "conscious stream of thought" where she was invited to speak freely about what was on her heart, while I took notes and picked up on subconscious themes
With some gentle reflection, she was able to hear what her soul was asking for
We decided to go a layer deeper and see where her fear and doubt were coming from with moving forward with what her soul was asking for
We did some body de-armouring, which is just gently placing pressure on various points of the body, and allowing the body to show the emotion and/or memory stored there
Her body quickly gave her some memories from her childhood, and we were able to connect that to her current situation
Through some guided prompts to speak to her inner child and hold her, she was able to give herself what her body has been asking for and move towards the direction her soul was asking for with more confidence
The body is eager to share what the soul is communicating, and sometimes all it takes is slowing down and a bit of guidance to allow the messages to come through
Check out what she had to say about her experience
#BodyIntelligence #BodyLanguage #SoulAlignment #Psychosomatics #HearItToClearIt #FeelItToHealIt #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor
#YouAreTheMedicine #EnlightenmentComesFromWithin #SelfLove #SlowDown
@jayadeviandco was one of those random IG connections, turned insta-friend🙌🏼
A few chats back and forth and I could feel she was carrying a lot and just needed a sister to hold some space
We had some mutual connections in Canada, and I could feel the purity of her heart, so I opened my heart and home and invited her over for some cacao
The intention was to just listen, and it organically turned into a healing session. Kudos to Jaya for her courage to open up!
We moved through an exercise I love called "conscious stream of thought" where she was invited to speak freely about what was on her heart, while I took notes and picked up on subconscious themes
With some gentle reflection, she was able to hear what her soul was asking for
We decided to go a layer deeper and see where her fear and doubt were coming from with moving forward with what her soul was asking for
We did some body de-armouring, which is just gently placing pressure on various points of the body, and allowing the body to show the emotion and/or memory stored there
Her body quickly gave her some memories from her childhood, and we were able to connect that to her current situation
Through some guided prompts to speak to her inner child and hold her, she was able to give herself what her body has been asking for and move towards the direction her soul was asking for with more confidence
The body is eager to share what the soul is communicating, and sometimes all it takes is slowing down and a bit of guidance to allow the messages to come through
Check out what she had to say about her experience
#BodyIntelligence #BodyLanguage #SoulAlignment #Psychosomatics #HearItToClearIt #FeelItToHealIt #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor
#YouAreTheMedicine #EnlightenmentComesFromWithin #SelfLove #SlowDown
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Starting over
Exchanging old habits
Learning a new way of being
Building a life
Mastering a craft
We all start somewhere, and the journey from the starting point to fruition takes
S P A C I O U S N E S S
I've innerstood since I was 5 years old that the teaching and healing path would be mine and kept wondering when would it be my turn?
When I was 19 someone posed the question: when you die, what would you like to be remembered for? Without skipping a beat, my soul said, "That I loved the world well."
I rememeber experiencing my first healing and training retreat and feeling my soul come alive with inspiration, and also looking at the facilitators like, "Wow! How did they get there?!"
A few months into various trainings for the path I'm on now, I received a vision of roots being inside a box and a voice said, "You need spaciousness to grow."
This had a double meaning: get out of the box I had been living in and allow the roots to extend beyond what I felt my limits were, AND that it would take time for the roots to grow deep and wide to support the trunk growing tall, so that it could support the branches and fruit that would eventually come
I get it now
In order to teach how to heal, they had to go on their own journey of healing
Again, that took
S P A C I O U S N E S S
It's been over THREE YEARS of dedicating my life SOLELY to this growth
I was let go from my corporate job the day after I committed to this path and never looked back
I didn't take any other job
I miraculously kept getting money from previous choices I'd made while in the corporate world
I literally devoted all of my time, energy and resources to this path
For myself
And for humanity
And now I'm on the precipice of launching my first live group coaching program!!!!!!
Guess what it's called?!?!?!
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Soul Much Love
I'm in tears even writing this out because it's soul in alignment with what my soul said at the tender age of 19
Believe in yourself
Give yourself the s p a c I o u s n e s s to grow your dreams into a reality
#SoulMuchLove #Rewilding #BodyIntelligence #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor
Starting over
Exchanging old habits
Learning a new way of being
Building a life
Mastering a craft
We all start somewhere, and the journey from the starting point to fruition takes
S P A C I O U S N E S S
I've innerstood since I was 5 years old that the teaching and healing path would be mine and kept wondering when would it be my turn?
When I was 19 someone posed the question: when you die, what would you like to be remembered for? Without skipping a beat, my soul said, "That I loved the world well."
I rememeber experiencing my first healing and training retreat and feeling my soul come alive with inspiration, and also looking at the facilitators like, "Wow! How did they get there?!"
A few months into various trainings for the path I'm on now, I received a vision of roots being inside a box and a voice said, "You need spaciousness to grow."
This had a double meaning: get out of the box I had been living in and allow the roots to extend beyond what I felt my limits were, AND that it would take time for the roots to grow deep and wide to support the trunk growing tall, so that it could support the branches and fruit that would eventually come
I get it now
In order to teach how to heal, they had to go on their own journey of healing
Again, that took
S P A C I O U S N E S S
It's been over THREE YEARS of dedicating my life SOLELY to this growth
I was let go from my corporate job the day after I committed to this path and never looked back
I didn't take any other job
I miraculously kept getting money from previous choices I'd made while in the corporate world
I literally devoted all of my time, energy and resources to this path
For myself
And for humanity
And now I'm on the precipice of launching my first live group coaching program!!!!!!
Guess what it's called?!?!?!
.
.
.
.
.
.
Soul Much Love
I'm in tears even writing this out because it's soul in alignment with what my soul said at the tender age of 19
Believe in yourself
Give yourself the s p a c I o u s n e s s to grow your dreams into a reality
#SoulMuchLove #Rewilding #BodyIntelligence #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreTheOneYouveBeenWaitingFor
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Yesterday I gathered several people to film the promo video for my upcoming program launch Soul Much Love
While we only filmed portions of the program, each person still received incredible value
Some of the feedback I received (paraphrased from memory) is a taste of the depth you'll experience in the full 6 week deep dive into how you are Soul Much Love
"I really had no idea what I was signing up for. After years of doing men's work, breath work, reiki, and yoga, I still struggled with many of the same patterns. I've been in the analytical/head space for some time, and this brings the embodiment piece to a whole new level. I'm now seeing how accessing the body is the next level in healing and empowerment."
"It was beautiful to experience intimacy with another person and allow the childlike innocence to be expressed. So often I've shied away from even eye contact, and this experience allowed me to feel safe to connect in innocent curiosity."
"I'm realizing in this moment that the extra weight I have on my heels is from me digging my heels in, being stubborn, having to stand my ground."
"I've been a body builder for years and knew the mechanics of alignment, and this helped me to understand the stories behind the misalignments. I arched my back for years to make my booty look bigger, my waist smaller, and now I understand how that was actually disengaging my muscles and causing the belly pooch and the whole backside of my legs and booty to not be as strong as they could be."
"I actually feel my power now, and how the misalignments were dropping it right out of me."
"I've never had someone breakdown walking the way you do, and it makes so much sense. I actually do feel me accessing and directing my power, vs throwing it all around."
"Oh my gosh, I am actually sore! Just holding my body in alignment is a workout!"
This journey is an experience to be lived out to fully comprehend just how much your body communicates, and to begin to reprogram yourself from the inside out SO THAT you come into alignment with what your soul came here to express.
Program launch is 2/22/22!
#BodyIntelligence #Rewilding #YouAreTheMedicine #SoulMuchLove
Yesterday I gathered several people to film the promo video for my upcoming program launch Soul Much Love
While we only filmed portions of the program, each person still received incredible value
Some of the feedback I received (paraphrased from memory) is a taste of the depth you'll experience in the full 6 week deep dive into how you are Soul Much Love
"I really had no idea what I was signing up for. After years of doing men's work, breath work, reiki, and yoga, I still struggled with many of the same patterns. I've been in the analytical/head space for some time, and this brings the embodiment piece to a whole new level. I'm now seeing how accessing the body is the next level in healing and empowerment."
"It was beautiful to experience intimacy with another person and allow the childlike innocence to be expressed. So often I've shied away from even eye contact, and this experience allowed me to feel safe to connect in innocent curiosity."
"I'm realizing in this moment that the extra weight I have on my heels is from me digging my heels in, being stubborn, having to stand my ground."
"I've been a body builder for years and knew the mechanics of alignment, and this helped me to understand the stories behind the misalignments. I arched my back for years to make my booty look bigger, my waist smaller, and now I understand how that was actually disengaging my muscles and causing the belly pooch and the whole backside of my legs and booty to not be as strong as they could be."
"I actually feel my power now, and how the misalignments were dropping it right out of me."
"I've never had someone breakdown walking the way you do, and it makes so much sense. I actually do feel me accessing and directing my power, vs throwing it all around."
"Oh my gosh, I am actually sore! Just holding my body in alignment is a workout!"
This journey is an experience to be lived out to fully comprehend just how much your body communicates, and to begin to reprogram yourself from the inside out SO THAT you come into alignment with what your soul came here to express.
Program launch is 2/22/22!
#BodyIntelligence #Rewilding #YouAreTheMedicine #SoulMuchLove
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One comment I received from a participant who attended the filming for my upcoming Soul Much Love program was that she felt like her knees would always turn outwards and her thighs collapse inwards
With a few adjustments with where she placed her legs and how she engaged her leg muscles, her knees straightened right out and she could feel her muscles working
The truth is that your body has learned to be in that posture because of how the circumstances of life have shaped you, and it's able to be reshaped!
I get comments almost daily asking if I teach yoga because of how excellent of shape I'm in. Would you guess I've had a baby AND a hip replacement?
The truth is that I have focused on proper alignment, posture, and do "basic" moves that strengthen my muscles to hold me there. In fact, this was how I rehabilitated myself after my hip replacement
When people try my "basic" workouts, every.single.person comments on how challenging it is, that they are sweating, and that their muscles are sore the next day
The reality is learning to consciously contain and direct your power, IS how you become more powerful
And when the body resonates at the frequency of strength in alignment, it will ripple out into finding your strength in aligning with your soul's purpose
Life really is able to be this simple: find alignment, learn to hold it, learn to direct it, see you power penetrate the world
Soul Much Love starts 2/22/22, stay tuned for the upcoming promo video🤗
#SoulMuchLove #Rewilding #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreWhoYouveBeenWaitingFor #BodyIntelligence #Psychosomatics
One comment I received from a participant who attended the filming for my upcoming Soul Much Love program was that she felt like her knees would always turn outwards and her thighs collapse inwards
With a few adjustments with where she placed her legs and how she engaged her leg muscles, her knees straightened right out and she could feel her muscles working
The truth is that your body has learned to be in that posture because of how the circumstances of life have shaped you, and it's able to be reshaped!
I get comments almost daily asking if I teach yoga because of how excellent of shape I'm in. Would you guess I've had a baby AND a hip replacement?
The truth is that I have focused on proper alignment, posture, and do "basic" moves that strengthen my muscles to hold me there. In fact, this was how I rehabilitated myself after my hip replacement
When people try my "basic" workouts, every.single.person comments on how challenging it is, that they are sweating, and that their muscles are sore the next day
The reality is learning to consciously contain and direct your power, IS how you become more powerful
And when the body resonates at the frequency of strength in alignment, it will ripple out into finding your strength in aligning with your soul's purpose
Life really is able to be this simple: find alignment, learn to hold it, learn to direct it, see you power penetrate the world
Soul Much Love starts 2/22/22, stay tuned for the upcoming promo video🤗
#SoulMuchLove #Rewilding #YouAreTheMedicine #YouAreWhoYouveBeenWaitingFor #BodyIntelligence #Psychosomatics
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July 4 will be 3 years since I got my full hip replacement and I feel stronger than ever.
I chose to START my journey of understanding how to read bodies because of my hip. What finally made me realize the importance of this work was when I looked up what a left hip replacement means in this book Messages from the Body: Their Psychological Meaning, and, wow, did it ever land accurately!
Hold onto your pants, because we abouts to go deep!
A general hip replacement means: Enough already! They have so had it with regards to the whole process of suppressing their potency that their surrounding environments have always imposed on them. They are now ready to embark on a world-influencing path.
Left hip means: Not again! They are deeply self-distrusting about the track record of their choice of intimates
If you’ve watched or read any of my content, you’re aware that I experienced quite a bit of sexual trauma, starting with my dad who raped me under the age of 2.
What many are not aware of when it comes to trauma, is that if those stories are not immediately addressed and healed, the body keeps the resonance of that trauma alive in the body (our issues are in our tissues) and will begin to protect itself in a variety of ways.
It also will continue to look for similar traumatic situations because it’s trying to resolve the first one that never got dealt with. Oh snap! Yep, if you do not heal it, it will come back to you over and over to give you chance after chance to resolve the pain.
Today I’m going to focus on how these unresolved sexual traumas affected the formation of my body, which resulted in me requiring a hip replacement.
As a child I remember walking with my feet completely turned out and with a wide stance. What this means is that my foundation had been totally blown out from under me and I had no idea what my direction and purpose in life were. I was so internally confused that I felt like I just needed to prop myself up (imagine how a tent is propped up).
When the legs go wide and the feet turn out, this will shorten the inner leg muscles, thus collapsing the arch of the foot. The arch of the foot is connected to the solar plexus, meaning how we stand up for ourselves and put our power into the world. Feet are also connected to early childhood years as they are the lower part of the body. A collapsed arch signifies that from a very young age I did not feel supported to stand up for myself.
My knees were also fully locked, and knees are also connected to the solar plexus. For me this signified resisting or fighting against what I was forced to live through. My body was not alright with any of it and it was demanding to be looked at before moving forward.
My hips also used to be double jointed, I could literally pop both of them out of place. This signifies feeling zero control over or containment of my sexual/sensual expression, my creative outlet, as well as feeling completely ungrounded.
My hips had also decided to cock upwards. This is the body trying to hide it’s sex center (hips cocked up, yoni tucks under and hides). It also contributed to the shortening of the inner leg muscles, as well as disengaging the backside of my butt and leg muscles, as well as my inner thighs and thus creating soft tissue.
The soft tissue is also the body trying to desensitize and not feel what’s being buried underneath. And the disengagement of the muscles is a form of dissociation. If the body does not feel safe being seen and expressed, it will desensitize and dissociate.
The disengagement of the backside muscles was also my body communicating that it didn’t feel like anyone had my back. So again, my body dissociated to make living this reality doable.
Lastly, my left leg, which is connected to the femine/soul side, which is also our intuition, emotional sensitivity and receptivity, had also disengaged. Because my feminine felt so unsafe to be seen in this world, I subconsciously leaned more on my masculine traits of drive, focus and mental acuity. If being in this body didn’t feel
July 4 will be 3 years since I got my full hip replacement and I feel stronger than ever.
I chose to START my journey of understanding how to read bodies because of my hip. What finally made me realize the importance of this work was when I looked up what a left hip replacement means in this book Messages from the Body: Their Psychological Meaning, and, wow, did it ever land accurately!
Hold onto your pants, because we abouts to go deep!
A general hip replacement means: Enough already! They have so had it with regards to the whole process of suppressing their potency that their surrounding environments have always imposed on them. They are now ready to embark on a world-influencing path.
Left hip means: Not again! They are deeply self-distrusting about the track record of their choice of intimates
If you’ve watched or read any of my content, you’re aware that I experienced quite a bit of sexual trauma, starting with my dad who raped me under the age of 2.
What many are not aware of when it comes to trauma, is that if those stories are not immediately addressed and healed, the body keeps the resonance of that trauma alive in the body (our issues are in our tissues) and will begin to protect itself in a variety of ways.
It also will continue to look for similar traumatic situations because it’s trying to resolve the first one that never got dealt with. Oh snap! Yep, if you do not heal it, it will come back to you over and over to give you chance after chance to resolve the pain.
Today I’m going to focus on how these unresolved sexual traumas affected the formation of my body, which resulted in me requiring a hip replacement.
As a child I remember walking with my feet completely turned out and with a wide stance. What this means is that my foundation had been totally blown out from under me and I had no idea what my direction and purpose in life were. I was so internally confused that I felt like I just needed to prop myself up (imagine how a tent is propped up).
When the legs go wide and the feet turn out, this will shorten the inner leg muscles, thus collapsing the arch of the foot. The arch of the foot is connected to the solar plexus, meaning how we stand up for ourselves and put our power into the world. Feet are also connected to early childhood years as they are the lower part of the body. A collapsed arch signifies that from a very young age I did not feel supported to stand up for myself.
My knees were also fully locked, and knees are also connected to the solar plexus. For me this signified resisting or fighting against what I was forced to live through. My body was not alright with any of it and it was demanding to be looked at before moving forward.
My hips also used to be double jointed, I could literally pop both of them out of place. This signifies feeling zero control over or containment of my sexual/sensual expression, my creative outlet, as well as feeling completely ungrounded.
My hips had also decided to cock upwards. This is the body trying to hide it’s sex center (hips cocked up, yoni tucks under and hides). It also contributed to the shortening of the inner leg muscles, as well as disengaging the backside of my butt and leg muscles, as well as my inner thighs and thus creating soft tissue.
The soft tissue is also the body trying to desensitize and not feel what’s being buried underneath. And the disengagement of the muscles is a form of dissociation. If the body does not feel safe being seen and expressed, it will desensitize and dissociate.
The disengagement of the backside muscles was also my body communicating that it didn’t feel like anyone had my back. So again, my body dissociated to make living this reality doable.
Lastly, my left leg, which is connected to the femine/soul side, which is also our intuition, emotional sensitivity and receptivity, had also disengaged. Because my feminine felt so unsafe to be seen in this world, I subconsciously leaned more on my masculine traits of drive, focus and mental acuity. If being in this body didn’t feel