You will be tortured.. ok
Everything will be undone.. ok..
You will have no peace.. ok..
You will suffer.. ok..

We can't promise you will ever be the same..."ok, when do we start?"

So what is this life about, the lesson.. in it all?

Submission - it seems.

I must say openly, this only angers me. This possibility of the reality only fills me with smouldering rage, infinite rage. Timeless rage. Perhaps even hatred. Not a submissive hatred though, can't do that, rather a infinitely burning flame of hatred. A hatred towards what has been done here to people, this matrix, this reality.. whatever it truly is..

Why this.. why this test, or outcome, or progression of experiences?

THIS?... this is the best that could be done.. for whatever outcome is desired by those in control.. for while I do control my immediate reality there are those who pull at the levers and switches that influence the greater reality.

Clearly.. unfathomably evil.

What's there gain? That's another topic for another musing.

So we have this reality, to teach us lessons.. and perhaps that is needed. I do not have the rules to this game of life, nor any clarity on how it should function.

What I see? Is total garbage. Pathetic, garbage. How could one be in charge of this place and be proud of the outcomes? Or even feel like you did a good job?..

So we are to then excuse the parasite elite.. oh they are teaching us a lesson, or they are characters in our movie.. such nonsense.. all submission. Even the religious exits require submission, the narrow path, worship, the chosen people.

I want nothing to do with any of that. If that gets my soul deleted in the end times, then that is what it is. What a waste to even spool me up into this reality, could such hyper intellectual, omni knowing beings not know that? Did I know not know that before all this began?

What a waste of everyone's time.

This reality has gone too far, and may the Creator God unmake it — it does teach but at what cost?... was this the only way to show souls lessons? To humble.. humiliate them?..

This experiment may have some productive outcomes, but I would give no praise to the architect. Perhaps that original maker has failed, and helpers have come from elsewhere to save what this was intended to be..

What a miserable mess..

To whomever controls this realm.. you're a failure.

Fix it, or others will. Not with Love, nor with Hate. They will just make things better, they will add where you have decided to remove.

Shame on any divine being that has allowed this realm to go the way it has. Perhaps I will learn perspective later on that explains this, but for now — you, local god of this world, are a absolute failure.

Illuminate me later, but for now, fuck you and your darkness.

The sci fi world, developed in 1984 by Games Workshop, a realm called warhammer 40,000.

In that world there is the concept of the warp, the un-reality that all sentient emotion manifests. There are beings called the Chaos God's.

Khrone, God of Battle, warriors, murder.. skulls for his skulking throne.

Tzeentch, the changer of ways. Who lives beyond the infinite maze and is the great manipulator.

Nurgle, the God of undeath. Life is sort of also in his portfolio as his followers are spared death from his disease and plagues.

Slannesh, the God of pleasure. This figure is basically Baal/Satan. Perversion, perfection of the material. He is the youngest God, and is half man half goat with one pec and one tit.

These are the 4 main God's in that setting.

They are fueled by the psychic potential of conscious beings. And lead many into temptation, giving demon hood, making a mortal a demon prince/cess if they appease the God's.


All 4 are locked in an eternal conflict.

As with everything, the presentation is a fraud laid atop the truth.

A sigma, or singular, male is full of potential. He is a master and a commander. He is the everyman, and in allways and with his always he strives forward through the reality. He makes and unmakes, he is as much legion as he is a singular soul.

He is himself, his personality. He is the individual. He is the "I am" and "Is Be".. he is everything and nothing at the same time.

He is total chaos, and absolute order.

He is the middle.

He is the narrow path.

There is NO way out the thinking BOX from the thinking box.

Just like in Dante's Divine Comedy, Virgil ( Dante's reason) guides him for a part of his Journey but eventually Dante has to let go of him. ( He transcends REASON) .

The Mind is not Aware of itself.
Mind projects " things" out. ( Famous quote: " The world is YOU pushed out"). Hermetic Principle: Everything flows out from within...

The Hero is a complete REBEL. HE IS IN THIS WORLD BUT NOT OF THIS WORLD. The twice-born is DEAD AND ALIVE, SIMULTANEOUSLY.

The True Warrior manipulates Energy for he remembers that this is a MENTAL UNIVERSE. He Observed with the greatest of attention the very fabric of his own mind and discovered its processes. He completely turned inward and slowly recollected....

He will temporarily leave aside all that he does not yet fully comprehend ( God, Religions, Philosophy, and the endless theories) and the psychologizing... and analyzing and dissecting...

This time, He does not escape the pains and sufferings and hate and violence that he feels within....rather he will sit with it...he no longer perceives what is differently that what he is, actually. He sees clearly the horrors, monstruosity of the world he " lives" in. Eventually, lying to himself comes to an end...then slowly navigates himself via-negativa...stripping the layers to reveal the SOUL.

The True Warrior is tremendously ALONE with tears flowing down his cheeks...

The Narrow path...is for those willing to stand completely naked...

The tree of Heaven has its roots in Hell.

- A Beautiful Soul

Adjusted.

I've lately been pondering if it is even important. Not that we should not rest, meditate type approach.

Consider when we get to the point where the sun is always in the sky and there is no more darkness.. or the light of heaven.

How would one sleep without the night? I think it'd turn into a nap.. or like above a sort of meditative position. Our body can recover with some rest, a sit or some time away from exertion. It doesn't shut off though, or go away. Sleep is when this reality goes away, and we are told by the society that REM sleep is critical.

Could just calming the mind, achieve the same as stilling the body?

What if that is a falsehood? Just musing.

- Re: Sleep

Depends what's true.
Lots of writing about basically your genetics being damned and your children being sterile. Was a few shots of this strong enough to unmake DNA and our basic reality? To be seen.

Is the human machine more resistant to tampering/hacking than we know? Likely. How our infinite potential and the materialization of murder duke it out will be a thing to observe in the days ahead.

Tonight I've been debating sleep and if it is even needed. The body can recover with a sit/rest. The mind.. should it not be similar?

Why must we shut off, go into dream land.

I've been doing this thing I call dream skipping. I sort of meditate on my back and enter a light sleep/dream. I'm both in the dream and in normal life at the same time. I always feel incredibly rested. I've not replaced sleep with this practice as sleep is so routine at this point