Ah the urge to stab yourself in the chest just to make airway.

Why are they the way that they are?

They’re so disgusting, like do you live in each other’s minds? Ugh.

I love him as an unstable uncle

#maxverstappen #f1

#charlesleclerc #f1

#danielricciardo #f1

#lestappen #f1

#maxiel #f1

#brocedes #f1

What a curse to be your teammates’ soulmate. Or was it a blessing and we fucked it up? #f1

Shakespeare in sonnet 80 once said:

Then, if he thrive and I be cast away,
The worst was this: my love was my decay

& Nico Rosberg said:

The worst was the hotel rooms

You know it’s bad when your heart races like crazy and you start shaking while reading a fucking fanfic.

It’s pathetic actually.

Oh well, I guess it hit a little too close to home.

You know it’s funny actually, when the knot in my stomach came back today I felt relieved. I was eating a bit normal for a few days so it’s nice to go back to not being able to stomach food again. Less guilty, a little lighter.

ED is my only mental disorder I don’t wanna let go of. Idk what I’d do without it.

I realized long ago I need to feel all this, I need there to be an excuse for being a nobody, for being absolutely nothing.

So I guess I’m hanging on to it. Not that there’s a way out of this mess, not that anything will ever help any part of it, but even if, if there was a way out, I’ll be standing there looking at the doorway where the light is seeping through and I won’t take a single fucking step towards it. Because this is safe, this is where I belong.