#maxverstappen #f1

#charlesleclerc #f1

#danielricciardo #f1

#lestappen #f1

#maxiel #f1

#brocedes #f1

What a curse to be your teammates’ soulmate. Or was it a blessing and we fucked it up? #f1

Shakespeare in sonnet 80 once said:

Then, if he thrive and I be cast away,
The worst was this: my love was my decay

& Nico Rosberg said:

The worst was the hotel rooms

You know it’s bad when your heart races like crazy and you start shaking while reading a fucking fanfic.

It’s pathetic actually.

Oh well, I guess it hit a little too close to home.

You know it’s funny actually, when the knot in my stomach came back today I felt relieved. I was eating a bit normal for a few days so it’s nice to go back to not being able to stomach food again. Less guilty, a little lighter.

ED is my only mental disorder I don’t wanna let go of. Idk what I’d do without it.

I realized long ago I need to feel all this, I need there to be an excuse for being a nobody, for being absolutely nothing.

So I guess I’m hanging on to it. Not that there’s a way out of this mess, not that anything will ever help any part of it, but even if, if there was a way out, I’ll be standing there looking at the doorway where the light is seeping through and I won’t take a single fucking step towards it. Because this is safe, this is where I belong.

Do you too whenever see them together hear Carlos’ voice saying “together or nothing” or am I just going completely insane?