“it’ll pass” “everyone feels this way” “you’ve done so much good” “theres nothing wrong with you” no there is. like there actually is something terribly wrong with me and my entire life has been affected by this and everytime you think I’m doing better I’m actually not I just don’t want to say anything so no one will get spooked by how fucking terrible I’m doing. but I’m bad. like it’s fucking bad. there is something wrong and strange about me that affects everything I touch. there’s no reason to ignore it or lie to me about it. it’s no comfort.

sometimes I think very cruel thoughts so I have to punish myself because there’s no one else who heard me but me

may jk rowling burn and die by the fire she started

mind you these are supposed to be the best years of my life. whatever that means

if I ask for your zodiac it has nothing to do with if I believe in it and everything to do with if I like how you answer the question

sometimes when leonard cohen sounds too young in a song it scares me

my channel insists upon itself

you are afraid and you should keep going.

press be asking do I care for sodomy? I don’t know, yeah probaby

can you believe paul mccartney asked “Will I wait a lonely lifetime? If you want me to, I will” at 26 and he literally did

fuck my stupid chungus life

“wuh luh wuh” YOU ARE TWENTY FOUR YEARS OLD

doing research into the life of my new favorite author and by god if I can’t find a history with lesbianism, I will make one

I wish I was as rich as some of yall you seem very happy

I know how Elliott Smith felt

genuinely don’t know what the world wants from me

I am spiritually against copyright but I can’t really explain it all rn

the truth is that I am a malignant force in my own life

things that scare me and stress me out:
my family
my friends
my loved ones
my career as an artist

things that don’t stress me out:
arguing with strangers online
british rock musician rpf
eating anything i can find in the fridge
terrible 90s movies no one in their right mind would watch