I'm gonna address the comments on the previous post later when more spoons, but I wanted to make a separate post for a really important thing.


I am a real dysfunctional person, and when my mood is not at its best, the messiness is one of the first things that I let myself indulge a little bit too much in. So, I was to the point I was too freaked out to even walk in my bedroom except for taking stuff, cause it felt too messy, too dirty, too big. Cleaning it was impossible.

Today, without saying a word, my amazing flatmate, who's having their fair share of shit from life as well, completely cleaned my room and made it comfy for me again. They don't expect anything in return, I have no money, cooking freaks me out and I don't have many means to actually repay them, but that's not what this is about. They helped me when I couldn't help myself, when I was spiraling too much to even ask for help.

I am just so grateful, and I had to share my love and my bless in this moment. I am so thankful I have amazing people in my life, I hope everyone has a support system that can help them bloom as well.

My therapist at the beginning of the summer was like: "I don't think you should go that long without seeing someone, please refer to my colleague if you need it while I'm on vacay"
My therapist now: "Wassup girl I get you need therapy but until you won't pay me the previous ones we won't have a session bye"

I mean, I get her point, she has every right to get her money, but I also feel frustrated because idk if she told me beforehand I would have acted accordingly, so I am kinda mad at her and I don't think that's a good thing

Also since this has become My Personal My Melody Secret Diary, I will also say a good thing: tomorrow I will finally meet my catlike best friend, who I don't see from my graduation day on May during the party.
So, I'm gonna be extra cuddled for a few days and we're gonna watch osbcure old or very weird horror movies, feel free to leave advices about that

Forever repost

Ngl, getting real tired of megacorporations saying saving the planet it’s on YOU, random citizen! If you cook your pasta with the gas on you are WASTING RESOURCES. It will be YOUR FAULT, as if they are not still doing irreparable damage a thousand times worse every minute.

Nervi tesi, fasci appesi, nervi tesi.

I'm usually a "Don't kill my vibe" type of person, but today I beg you, please kill my vibe. It's an awful vibe.
The Black Eyed Peas would never approve of this vibe.

"So, which one of my meds should we change?"
"👁All👁of👁them👁"

Shout out to

Also please don't romanticise serial killer thanks

Update: I sent her a message telling her to confirm how much I owe her and that I will pay her next week (I will finally have some money and it will all go in mental health debts, funny isn't it), but that at the same time I don't feel comfortable keeping her as my therapist because I feel like our trust was betrayed and she could have handled the situation better.
So now I am crying, without a therapist (that still helped me so so much) and looking for a new one. Yay me.