ALL THINGS THAT ARE, ARE OURS. BUT WE MUST CARE. FOR IF WE DO NOT CARE, WE DO NOT EXIST. IF WE DO NOT EXIST, THEN THERE IS NOTHING BUT BLIND OBLIVION. AND EVEN OBLIVION MUST END SOMEDAY. LORD, WILL YOU GRANT ME JUST A LITTLE TIME? FOR THE PROPER BALANCE OF THINGS. TO RETURN WHAT WAS GIVEN. FOR THE SAKE OF PRISONERS AND THE FLIGHT OF BIRDS.

LORD, WHAT CAN THE HARVEST HOPE FOR, IF NOT FOR THE CARE OF THE REAPER MAN?

“Gideon Nav is not an unreliable narrator” and other bad takes no one should have to read before breakfast

That was not a dog that was clearly me I fucking love that design

Me abt Kycilia Zabi

*cocks gun* the sadness abt wot is not fading, so i'll ramble for a bit about my favorite pathetic man

I always joke that I've been liking the same three things for all my life. I do am very consistent in what I like in my pieces of media: I like devotion, I like cannibalism, I like hope. The same indeed applies to characters.

Mat Cauthon from the wheel of time has been haunting my blorbos since I was fourteen, and now that the show's been cancelled, allow me to talk for a bit about two of my favorite scenes with him, one that did not happen the way it did, and one that never will.

There will be spoilers
They are spoilers for the last episode of a show that got canceled after 3 seasons, and for the last books of a series that ended more than 10 years ago.

In the books, Mat goes to Rhuidean with Rand. He goes looking for answers, answers that do not include "no you can't do that". It's there that, while Rand is in the arches, he finds the door, and there he strikes his deal with the Aelfinn.

It's there that they hang him, like Odin, hung to the tree of life for three days, as a price to a knowledge he did not know he was paying.

I do not know what would they have done in the show, but in the books is Rand that cuts him down and brings him back with (lmao) a cardiac massage. I freaking love that scene. I freaking love Rand desperate, frantic to save his friend, thinking "I can't use the One Power, he hates the One Power, I have to save to him" and thinking about himself trying to reranimate a girl with magic, making her heart pump blood, her limbs move like a puppet and repeating "no, not again, i won't do that again".

The reader will never feel how much Rand cares for him like this again, how they all care for each other, the lenght they're willing to go for one another. Mat will live, of course, and they will go on to become a chief, a king, an Emperor, a Tyrant, and his general. Their relatioship will become strained, draw taut by the chain that Rand mere existance puts around everyone neck and by the way Mat tries to resist every step towards his fate.

It will all grow worse and painful and broken and distant and they won't almost ever be as close as in that moment, a desperate boy trying to save a friend.

Oh I’m not done

A reminder to myself.

Reading, reading a lot, reading different, weird things was one of the few parts of me I loved about myself, and one that I miss dearly.

It’s something I want to get back. Not sure I can, I’ll be honest with you guys.

And yet, we persist.

Yeah so we all agree? No joking about rainbow capitalism this June right? Not in this political climate right?