Grieving NYE
i know this probably sounds small in the grand scheme of things, but it’s hitting me harder than i expected i guess.
nye is like the only holiday i genuinely have any interest in celebrating. it’s one of those nights for me that carries a lot of feeling and significance with it. reflection, closeness, marking the end of something and the beginning of something new. and im just… extremely sad that we won’t be together for it.
i keep thinking about all the tiny moments that won’t happen. no countdown together. no shared “we made it through another year.” no quiet after midnight where everything feels a little softer. it feels lonely.
i understand the reasons. im not angry, just grieving the version of the night i wanted or would’ve loved, one where we’re side by side, even if we’re doing nothing special. especially when being together already feels limited sometimes, this one just stings.
i know it’s just one silly night. i know there will be other moments. but im letting myself feel sad about this one.
thanks for letting me vent.
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i know this probably sounds small in the grand scheme of things, but it’s hitting me harder than i expected i guess.
nye is like the only holiday i genuinely have any interest in celebrating. it’s one of those nights for me that carries a lot of feeling and significance with it. reflection, closeness, marking the end of something and the beginning of something new. and im just… extremely sad that we won’t be together for it.
i keep thinking about all the tiny moments that won’t happen. no countdown together. no shared “we made it through another year.” no quiet after midnight where everything feels a little softer. it feels lonely.
i understand the reasons. im not angry, just grieving the version of the night i wanted or would’ve loved, one where we’re side by side, even if we’re doing nothing special. especially when being together already feels limited sometimes, this one just stings.
i know it’s just one silly night. i know there will be other moments. but im letting myself feel sad about this one.
thanks for letting me vent.
https://redd.it/1pye68t
@reddit_pride
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