THE UNSPEAKABLE TRUTH - THE LAW OF SILENCE: SEXUAL ABUSE IN TIBETAN BUDDHISM
(Documentary 90min)
“An international icon, the Dalai Lama himself has long covered up the secret dealings of those who serve the expansion of his religion…”
'An in-depth account that lifts the veil on the unspiritual underbelly of a religion revered in Europe. His name is Ricardo Mendes and, as a young man, he lived through hell in a Buddhist community in Castellane, far from the ideal of wisdom advocated by its founder, Robert Spatz.
Now in search of justice and having filed a civil suit, Ricardo tells how the Belgian lama encouraged his disciples to abandon their offspring to him, leaving him free to do as he pleased. Physical abuse, deprivation of food and freedom or rape of girls were the daily lot of unprotected children.
However, these abuses are not an exception: since Tibetan Buddhism became a fashionable phenomenon in the 1960s, particularly in Europe, sexual and financial scandals have multiplied, while its masters in exile have prospered.
An international icon, the Dalai Lama himself has long covered up the secret dealings of those who serve the expansion of his religion: with an economy based on charity, the latter must avoid too flashy a business...
The Lama Sogyal Rinpoche, who became the head of an empire after the publication of his bestseller The Tibetan Book of Life and Death, was nevertheless denounced by many victims for his immoderate taste for luxury, his violent authoritarianism and his sexual excesses.
In the back rooms of monasteries, "People take charisma for a spiritual quality.
Thanks to its revelations and the quality of its contributors, this edifying documentary helps to unravel the "flowery" Western view of exotic Tibetan Buddhism.
It reminds us that this religion requires total devotion on the part of the student, who must certify to his master that he will keep secret the initiations to which he must submit: an ideal breeding ground for covering abuses of all kinds with a blanket of silence.
The research carried out by journalist Élodie Emery and documentary filmmaker Wandrille Lanos refines the perception of this spirituality which is adorned with so many virtues, including poverty. Buddhism, a veritable multinational company, has its own head offices, by-products (including meditation), subsidiaries (Buddhist centres for the wealthy), communication strategies and agencies specialising in crisis management.
With numerous testimonies, including researchers and abused followers who tell the story behind the scenes, this in-depth account lifts the veil on the impostures of Buddhism, which is so popular in the West for its quest for inner peace.'
https://youtu.be/Sg-5CDOcsTM
(Documentary 90min)
“An international icon, the Dalai Lama himself has long covered up the secret dealings of those who serve the expansion of his religion…”
'An in-depth account that lifts the veil on the unspiritual underbelly of a religion revered in Europe. His name is Ricardo Mendes and, as a young man, he lived through hell in a Buddhist community in Castellane, far from the ideal of wisdom advocated by its founder, Robert Spatz.
Now in search of justice and having filed a civil suit, Ricardo tells how the Belgian lama encouraged his disciples to abandon their offspring to him, leaving him free to do as he pleased. Physical abuse, deprivation of food and freedom or rape of girls were the daily lot of unprotected children.
However, these abuses are not an exception: since Tibetan Buddhism became a fashionable phenomenon in the 1960s, particularly in Europe, sexual and financial scandals have multiplied, while its masters in exile have prospered.
An international icon, the Dalai Lama himself has long covered up the secret dealings of those who serve the expansion of his religion: with an economy based on charity, the latter must avoid too flashy a business...
The Lama Sogyal Rinpoche, who became the head of an empire after the publication of his bestseller The Tibetan Book of Life and Death, was nevertheless denounced by many victims for his immoderate taste for luxury, his violent authoritarianism and his sexual excesses.
In the back rooms of monasteries, "People take charisma for a spiritual quality.
Thanks to its revelations and the quality of its contributors, this edifying documentary helps to unravel the "flowery" Western view of exotic Tibetan Buddhism.
It reminds us that this religion requires total devotion on the part of the student, who must certify to his master that he will keep secret the initiations to which he must submit: an ideal breeding ground for covering abuses of all kinds with a blanket of silence.
The research carried out by journalist Élodie Emery and documentary filmmaker Wandrille Lanos refines the perception of this spirituality which is adorned with so many virtues, including poverty. Buddhism, a veritable multinational company, has its own head offices, by-products (including meditation), subsidiaries (Buddhist centres for the wealthy), communication strategies and agencies specialising in crisis management.
With numerous testimonies, including researchers and abused followers who tell the story behind the scenes, this in-depth account lifts the veil on the impostures of Buddhism, which is so popular in the West for its quest for inner peace.'
https://youtu.be/Sg-5CDOcsTM
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Buddhism, the Law of Silence - Abuses in Tibetan Buddhism
Buddhism, the law of silence Sexual abuse, mental manipulation and embezzlement: Tibetan Buddhism is shaken by serious scandals.
An in-depth account that lifts the veil on the unspiritual underbelly of a religion revered in Europe. His name is Ricardo Mendes…
An in-depth account that lifts the veil on the unspiritual underbelly of a religion revered in Europe. His name is Ricardo Mendes…
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The argument that it’s just a cultural tradition we don’t understand is a fallacy. There are plenty of traditions that need to be questioned. Just because it’s “culture” doesn’t mean something is immune to critique.
Listen to this podcast episode by clicking the link below or by searching Cosmic Matrix on iTunes, Spotify, or any other podcast streamer. https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/16/is-the-age-of-gurus-over-the-dalai-lama-situation-and-more-tcm-106-part-1/
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The possibility of getting hijacked into a contract/agreement with negative entities is further heightened if you are trying to manifest desires which arise from the conditioned ego personality, particularly when it involves another person – a relationship/partner one wants to manifest or attract, especially when casting love spells or creating sigils.
Listen to this podcast episode by clicking the link below or by searching Cosmic Matrix on iTunes, Spotify, or any other podcast streamer. https://veilofreality.com/2019/09/29/relationships-and-spiritual-growth-tcm-podcast-17-part-1/
Read the full article on Veil of Reality at: https://veilofreality.com/2018/09/06/parasitic-paramour-occult-traps-involved-in-trying-to-manifest-a-love-relationship-partner/
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Read the full article on Veil of Reality at: https://veilofreality.com/2018/09/06/parasitic-paramour-occult-traps-involved-in-trying-to-manifest-a-love-relationship-partner/
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If you do not combine taking the “red pill” with sincere inner work, you can literally go mad and get lost in the rabbit hole of paranoia.
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The popular Biohacking trend to optimize health, the body, longevity, and "reverse aging" with all its benefits [some of which I implement, too] has its dark side when getting overly obsessed and identified with the physical body, caught in a purely materialistic view of life, mistaking the body for the true Self and not recognizing one's spiritual eternal nature.
It can also lay the ground for the Transhumanism occult trap, which will ultimately lead to soul entrapment as the biohacker community will be tempted to "upgrade" their bodies via implanted nanotechnology and other biotechnologies. We already see the obsession with the physical body with the increase in cosmetic surgeries, injections, and AI filters on social media which already creates more body dysmorphia.
Yes, do take care of your body. It is your costume and vessel for this current incarnation. Treat it well and optimize it naturally as the temple for your soul-being to be an efficient servant of the Divine so you can do the work you came here to do while learning your lessons in this Adventure of Consciousness.
But do not identify with it and neglect your inner life and connection to your soul-being and true Self. Your innermost being is the gateway to the Divine and will assist and help you navigate this Time of Transition without falling into the many [soul] traps and temptations as we approach the age of A.I. and Transhumanism.
Godspeed.
Bernhard Guenther
https://veilofreality.com/2022/12/15/the-a-i-transhumanism-occult-trap-and-the-way-out/
It can also lay the ground for the Transhumanism occult trap, which will ultimately lead to soul entrapment as the biohacker community will be tempted to "upgrade" their bodies via implanted nanotechnology and other biotechnologies. We already see the obsession with the physical body with the increase in cosmetic surgeries, injections, and AI filters on social media which already creates more body dysmorphia.
Yes, do take care of your body. It is your costume and vessel for this current incarnation. Treat it well and optimize it naturally as the temple for your soul-being to be an efficient servant of the Divine so you can do the work you came here to do while learning your lessons in this Adventure of Consciousness.
But do not identify with it and neglect your inner life and connection to your soul-being and true Self. Your innermost being is the gateway to the Divine and will assist and help you navigate this Time of Transition without falling into the many [soul] traps and temptations as we approach the age of A.I. and Transhumanism.
Godspeed.
Bernhard Guenther
https://veilofreality.com/2022/12/15/the-a-i-transhumanism-occult-trap-and-the-way-out/
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After meditating for several years, the constant inner monologue stopped. I realized that monologue was a trauma response covering up my true nature.
Listen to this podcast episode by clicking the link below or by searching Cosmic Matrix on iTunes, Spotify, or any other podcast streamer. https://veilofreality.com/2021/02/15/what-is-inner-work-tcm-53-part-1/
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Humans outsmarting ai
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This is why they stopped recommending the previous vaccines.
Original post has more info: https://twitter.com/villgecrazylady/status/1648773105114832897?s=46&t=WHGEdtK6N8Wi1b9WJwsBUw
Original post has more info: https://twitter.com/villgecrazylady/status/1648773105114832897?s=46&t=WHGEdtK6N8Wi1b9WJwsBUw
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Forwarded from dwtruthwarrior 🇨🇦 (David Whitehead)
If you’re always “playing it safe” & are obsessed with avoiding the inevitable tests & unpredictable outcomes of life, you will never develop fortitude, resilience, courage or strength. Without these virtues you will then drift toward anxiety, rage, envy. Then you lose yourself.
Fear/temper/envy = the path of the dark side.
Fear/temper/envy = the path of the dark side.
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mRNA VACCINES, TRANSHUMANISM, AND THE BATTLE FOR OUR SOULS
“The covid vaccinations cause a separation of the human soul and spirit from the physical body, with far-reaching consequences for life after death. It is from the transhumanist movement that the covid vaccinations have originated. The covid vaccinations serve to anchor the transhumanist agenda within our bodies.”
– Thomas Mayer
READ HERE: https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/23/mrna-vaccines-transhumanism-and-the-battle-for-our-souls/
Chapters:
- Introduction
- More research on the basis of the supersensible perception of the C-V@x
- The Asura and the Powers of Darkness
- Genetic Engineering: Breaking into the Sacred Space of Our Being
- Impact on Future Incarnations and the Transhumanism Occult Trap
- The Religion of Transhumanism
- Humans need a software update: The mRNA V@x was the Trojan Horse
- The Mechanics of Soratic-Spirit Infiltration & Possession
- Evil Institutionalized and Materialistic Medicine
- Different Types of Soratic Spirits
- Organic Portals – Soulless Humans
- How Are Soratic Spirits Attracted And Take Humans Over?
- What Is Special About The Soratic Spirits Of Transhumanism?
- Why do V@xinated People Hardly Notice Changes in Themselves?
- Karmic Background of Ancient Egypt and Atlantis
- Spiritual Mummification and Manipulative Initiations in Ancient Egypt
- The Egyptian Priest Class & The Occult Law of Agreement of Entrapment
- Is The Sinking of Atlantis Being Repeated Today?
- Underlying Patterns – Then and Now – A Crossroad
- Is Humanity Awakening or Disintegrating?
- The New Fall of Humanity
- Expulsion from paradise on a soul-spiritual level
- Expulsion from physical paradise and soul entrapment
- Trapped in the After Life & The Battle For Our Souls
- The Time Of Transition And The Splitting Of Humanity
- Spiritual Preparation Needs To Come First
- The Most Important Choice You Need To Make
mRNA VACCINES, TRANSHUMANISM, AND THE BATTLE FOR OUR SOULS
“The covid vaccinations cause a separation of the human soul and spirit from the physical body, with far-reaching consequences for life after death. It is from the transhumanist movement that the covid vaccinations have originated. The covid vaccinations serve to anchor the transhumanist agenda within our bodies.”
– Thomas Mayer
READ HERE: https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/23/mrna-vaccines-transhumanism-and-the-battle-for-our-souls/
Chapters:
- Introduction
- More research on the basis of the supersensible perception of the C-V@x
- The Asura and the Powers of Darkness
- Genetic Engineering: Breaking into the Sacred Space of Our Being
- Impact on Future Incarnations and the Transhumanism Occult Trap
- The Religion of Transhumanism
- Humans need a software update: The mRNA V@x was the Trojan Horse
- The Mechanics of Soratic-Spirit Infiltration & Possession
- Evil Institutionalized and Materialistic Medicine
- Different Types of Soratic Spirits
- Organic Portals – Soulless Humans
- How Are Soratic Spirits Attracted And Take Humans Over?
- What Is Special About The Soratic Spirits Of Transhumanism?
- Why do V@xinated People Hardly Notice Changes in Themselves?
- Karmic Background of Ancient Egypt and Atlantis
- Spiritual Mummification and Manipulative Initiations in Ancient Egypt
- The Egyptian Priest Class & The Occult Law of Agreement of Entrapment
- Is The Sinking of Atlantis Being Repeated Today?
- Underlying Patterns – Then and Now – A Crossroad
- Is Humanity Awakening or Disintegrating?
- The New Fall of Humanity
- Expulsion from paradise on a soul-spiritual level
- Expulsion from physical paradise and soul entrapment
- Trapped in the After Life & The Battle For Our Souls
- The Time Of Transition And The Splitting Of Humanity
- Spiritual Preparation Needs To Come First
- The Most Important Choice You Need To Make
Piercing the Veil of Reality
mRNA Vaccines, Transhumanism, And The Battle For Our Souls
"It is from the transhumanist movement that the covid vaccinations have originated. The covid vaccinations serve to anchor the transhumanist agenda within our bodies."
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With Saturn in Pisces, we need to expect endings and the dissolution of old structures, which is the consequence of everything that has happened in the past few years. Another question we want to consider during this period is: what are our fantasies about our spiritual teachers and spiritual practice?
Listen to this podcast episode by clicking the link below or by searching Cosmic Matrix on iTunes, Spotify, or any other podcast streamer. https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/16/is-the-age-of-gurus-over-the-dalai-lama-situation-and-more-tcm-106-part-1/
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One of the ways the New Age distorts the law of attraction is by saying they don’t want to focus on negative forces because they don’t want to attract them, but you cannot defend yourself from something you are not aware of. A basic understanding of how negative forces work is critical because ignorance or innocence is not a defense.
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The clip above is from episode 3, part 2.
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It was NEVER for your "health" or "safety." Some poor, mentally ill, and brainwashed people based on MK-Ultra level fear-programming still wear masks. It's sad.
"German researchers have recently published a study indicating that wearing face masks, even for brief periods, could lead to carbon dioxide poisoning and potentially cause detrimental health consequences such as stillbirths in pregnant women, testicular dysfunction, and cognitive decline in children."
https://www.rebelnews.com/german_researchers_find_that_wearing_face_masks_could_result_in_stillbirths_and_cognitive_decline
"German researchers have recently published a study indicating that wearing face masks, even for brief periods, could lead to carbon dioxide poisoning and potentially cause detrimental health consequences such as stillbirths in pregnant women, testicular dysfunction, and cognitive decline in children."
https://www.rebelnews.com/german_researchers_find_that_wearing_face_masks_could_result_in_stillbirths_and_cognitive_decline
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German researchers find that wearing face masks could result in stillbirths and cognitive decline
A rise in stillbirths during the pandemic has been noted by Swedish researchers, who found an increase from seven per 1000 births to 21 per 1000 births. Similarly, a leading UK hospital experienced a four-fold increase in its stillbirth rate.
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Many major transhumanist proponents don’t believe in a soul. They deny the soul and want to play God themselves, who can tell people how to live on this planet.
Listen to this podcast episode by clicking the link below or by searching Cosmic Matrix on iTunes, Spotify, or any other podcast streamer. https://veilofreality.com/2023/03/08/the-a-i-transhumanism-occult-trap-and-the-way-out-tcm-104-part-1/
Read the full article on Veil of Reality at: https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/23/mrna-vaccines-transhumanism-and-the-battle-for-our-souls/
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Read the full article on Veil of Reality at: https://veilofreality.com/2023/04/23/mrna-vaccines-transhumanism-and-the-battle-for-our-souls/
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Deep truths in this old video with Eddie Murphy
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The acceleration of the sexualization of children in the music industry has gotten worse over the years. From a young age, they are programming us through music because the industry knows what frequencies to use to make you repeat something in your head.
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In my experience, there is a difference between conscious solitude and natural withdrawal from the consensus state of humanity to engage in esoteric work with the aspiration to the Divine and mechanical isolation based on unconscious trauma responses.
I've seen people fall into the trap of spiritual bypassing and isolation based on childhood wounding and trauma they never faced [or are not even aware of] and then "abuse" spiritual teachings to justify their isolation and anti-social behavior using it as an excuse why they can't engage socially at all, can’t find anybody to relate to, etc., and hence overestimate their level of "being"....or mistaking the fake desire-soul [as Sri Aurobindo called the “charlatan within” ] for the real soul.
I’ve also seen people complain that they can’t find friends or a partner, but they also don’t make any effort or use willpower to get out of their comfort zone to sincerely connect with others and not just on social media. Sometimes you gotta push through the inertia and discomfort. Deep psycho-spiritual work also requires the Will for many unconscious defense mechanisms, and excuses will come up not to do it.
In retrospect, I can see it in myself too. Being naturally very introverted and sensitive to other people's energies, I usually don't like being around people, crowds, or cities. But I've also seen that some of this reluctance in the past was based on childhood wounding and trauma [including past life trauma] - my wounded inner child being afraid to be rejected and hurt again, getting into a "freeze" response which kept me in my comfort zone and alone.
I also had to work on my triggers and projections and apply shadow work continuously since "normal" people were so triggering, and I judged them a lot, falling into the trap of superiority. It was unconscious, and so I lied to myself that I'm just more "spiritual," ”awake,” or more "introvert" than others and can't relate to their way of living. So, some of my introvert-ness was an unconscious trauma response resulting in more unhealthy isolation.
I had to re-parent my inner child using various somatic trauma modalities that helped me to connect to Self/Essence, which also included facing deeply internalized shame and guilt, which was the hardest and most painful to process since it was buried deep in my unconscious and masked up by a lot of defenses and armor.
But essentially, this psycho-somatic process helped me to lay down the foundation to engage in more "advanced" esoteric teachings like Integral Yoga.
Having said that, there is a natural withdrawal from exterior life when engaging in deeper esoteric work. It's reflected in all the esoteric traditions, and relationships do change. You can also relate to and engage with way fewer people, but it is not met with frustration, complaint, or superiority. You don’t feel annoyed or get into self-pity because you “can’t relate.” It doesn’t bother you one single bit, for you have found the kingdom within.
In my experience, when I am in Essence, or the psychic being (soul) makes its appearance within, I can be anywhere and around anyone in any crowd without getting thrown off, and I "see" the Divine's play in all and everything with equanimity no matter how crude or distorted it may be. It’s not a philosophical, intellectual impression but a direct experience. There are glimpses of that, but I'm still far from a full conscious connection at all times, to say the least, let alone full integration.
I still get dragged down again into the mud of the unconscious, battling demons within and without, projecting my shadow, getting triggered, feeling utterly alone, with cycles of dark nights of the soul as the ascent and descent widens, bringing up more shadow material to be transmuted and integrated.
I've seen people fall into the trap of spiritual bypassing and isolation based on childhood wounding and trauma they never faced [or are not even aware of] and then "abuse" spiritual teachings to justify their isolation and anti-social behavior using it as an excuse why they can't engage socially at all, can’t find anybody to relate to, etc., and hence overestimate their level of "being"....or mistaking the fake desire-soul [as Sri Aurobindo called the “charlatan within” ] for the real soul.
I’ve also seen people complain that they can’t find friends or a partner, but they also don’t make any effort or use willpower to get out of their comfort zone to sincerely connect with others and not just on social media. Sometimes you gotta push through the inertia and discomfort. Deep psycho-spiritual work also requires the Will for many unconscious defense mechanisms, and excuses will come up not to do it.
In retrospect, I can see it in myself too. Being naturally very introverted and sensitive to other people's energies, I usually don't like being around people, crowds, or cities. But I've also seen that some of this reluctance in the past was based on childhood wounding and trauma [including past life trauma] - my wounded inner child being afraid to be rejected and hurt again, getting into a "freeze" response which kept me in my comfort zone and alone.
I also had to work on my triggers and projections and apply shadow work continuously since "normal" people were so triggering, and I judged them a lot, falling into the trap of superiority. It was unconscious, and so I lied to myself that I'm just more "spiritual," ”awake,” or more "introvert" than others and can't relate to their way of living. So, some of my introvert-ness was an unconscious trauma response resulting in more unhealthy isolation.
I had to re-parent my inner child using various somatic trauma modalities that helped me to connect to Self/Essence, which also included facing deeply internalized shame and guilt, which was the hardest and most painful to process since it was buried deep in my unconscious and masked up by a lot of defenses and armor.
But essentially, this psycho-somatic process helped me to lay down the foundation to engage in more "advanced" esoteric teachings like Integral Yoga.
Having said that, there is a natural withdrawal from exterior life when engaging in deeper esoteric work. It's reflected in all the esoteric traditions, and relationships do change. You can also relate to and engage with way fewer people, but it is not met with frustration, complaint, or superiority. You don’t feel annoyed or get into self-pity because you “can’t relate.” It doesn’t bother you one single bit, for you have found the kingdom within.
In my experience, when I am in Essence, or the psychic being (soul) makes its appearance within, I can be anywhere and around anyone in any crowd without getting thrown off, and I "see" the Divine's play in all and everything with equanimity no matter how crude or distorted it may be. It’s not a philosophical, intellectual impression but a direct experience. There are glimpses of that, but I'm still far from a full conscious connection at all times, to say the least, let alone full integration.
I still get dragged down again into the mud of the unconscious, battling demons within and without, projecting my shadow, getting triggered, feeling utterly alone, with cycles of dark nights of the soul as the ascent and descent widens, bringing up more shadow material to be transmuted and integrated.
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Most often, all I have to cling to is Faith in the darkest moments while feeling completely alone as if God has forsaken me; even suicidal thoughts and suggestions come in when I'm lost in internalized shame & guilt when the hostile forces attack at full force to spoil the sadhana trying to drag me even further into the mud and darkness in their hopes to give in to the dark side.
But the only way out is in and through, and in those moments, I’m reminded again by Sri Aurobindo’s words:” None can reach heaven who has not passed through hell” or in Carl Jung’s words: “The tree that reaches to heaven must have its roots in hell.”
In those moments, prayer works, and in my experiences, if done sincerely without bargaining, the Divine always answers, helps, and gives guidance, but most often not in the ways I expected it or the little i[ego] want it to be. There is always a lesson to be learned, and humility is key, for God knows better than “I.”
Once I pass through one of these inner hells, I always come out stronger, wiser, more integrated, more whole, and more embodied, as if another mountain has been conquered. Many more to go…
I'm also graced to have a partner who is engaged in the same work [with different lessons for each of us], so our relationship becomes the sadhana, and we can give each other mirrors to become aware of our blind spots, including all the [necessary] triggers that only happen in a relationship to help integrate the Shadow and bring us closer to God.
But we both know that the relationship with the Divine is the most important relationship. More than any other relationship.
Know that you are never truly alone. Just learn to know the difference where loneliness is of your own [self-defeating] making due to trauma or if it is true solitude as you are connected to all that it is.
Suggestion: Do something today that gets you out of your “loneliness” comfort zone.
Godspeed.
Bernhard Guenther
But the only way out is in and through, and in those moments, I’m reminded again by Sri Aurobindo’s words:” None can reach heaven who has not passed through hell” or in Carl Jung’s words: “The tree that reaches to heaven must have its roots in hell.”
In those moments, prayer works, and in my experiences, if done sincerely without bargaining, the Divine always answers, helps, and gives guidance, but most often not in the ways I expected it or the little i[ego] want it to be. There is always a lesson to be learned, and humility is key, for God knows better than “I.”
Once I pass through one of these inner hells, I always come out stronger, wiser, more integrated, more whole, and more embodied, as if another mountain has been conquered. Many more to go…
I'm also graced to have a partner who is engaged in the same work [with different lessons for each of us], so our relationship becomes the sadhana, and we can give each other mirrors to become aware of our blind spots, including all the [necessary] triggers that only happen in a relationship to help integrate the Shadow and bring us closer to God.
But we both know that the relationship with the Divine is the most important relationship. More than any other relationship.
Know that you are never truly alone. Just learn to know the difference where loneliness is of your own [self-defeating] making due to trauma or if it is true solitude as you are connected to all that it is.
Suggestion: Do something today that gets you out of your “loneliness” comfort zone.
Godspeed.
Bernhard Guenther
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