adhd, executive dysfunction

"this hack will save your teeth: there are no "right" and "wrong" times to brush your teeth
[...]
honestly this hack will solve most of your problems. just stop assigning meaningless "right" and "wrong" to tasks and start saying "i can pretty much do whatever i want whenever i want and society and its expectations dont really matter to me"

if there's no barrier in the first place you dont have to get over it

you can always begin again. any hour, any moment can be the beginning. you can choose that. the clock doesnt run you, you run the clock"
"

parenting, trauma, anger

"in my life, most things were fleeting

there was always not enough time
not enough money
because there was always not enough...
our house only knew how to speak one language too

the language was anger
there was always enough to go around
it was free and easy to give away
our house always had some in stock ready
my father was a steady supply
i saw my mother keep her's in a jar that's always never empty"

source

"my brother and i got jars too, eventually
we didnt know what to do with it so we just copied them and filled it up slowly
by breaking things during arguments
saying only the most hurtful things you can come up with on the spot - like it was a contest

we were getting really good at it.
just like them

since being on my own i've been better
but sometimes i find small jars in my pocket
that i have to remind myself to throw away"