Finally
My diary

What is obvious is it's not my first day of life so this diary will show my thoughts about my daily life from now. Everybody have a past that influence their presents.

Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

I have works to do, so I should write a "to do list" to do them right.

Oh God, so much to do

Let's do it by S‌RTF method for motivation
SRTF = short remaining time first

Every single of my body cells are working to live and keep me alive it would be a disgrace if I give up and don't try to solve my problems.

I will do what I think it's right till the end.

I have been told to talk less, so I decided not to talk with that person, because when someone tells you to talk less, means he/she can decide when you can talk, though he/she can't.

So I only give him/her a simple answer to direct questions untill he/she begs me to talk with him/her

You can say : I'm not in a good mood, please live me alone Or I can't talk to you right now, instead.

YOU CAN'T CONTROL MY BEHAVIORS AND ACTIONS AGAINST MY WILL.

How isn't there any standard paperwork routine in government? An employee does a same work and want complete different evidences😐

Will I have something to be happy for rest of my life in this way I put steps in it?

I really don't understand people who say money isn't important, almost all my problem will be solved by 30 grand dollars.

If money can't buy you happiness, give all your money to me, at least, help someone be happy😁

A nice meal at a peaceful place make me calm and relieved.

A friend suggested me to watch The Menu (2022),so I watched it.
I really enjoyed it and had empathy with chéf.

I was louder and had more energy before, now I'm calm and more silent.
Everybody begins to get worried and asks about my feeling.
I'm OK.
I just don't enjoy your company like before.

“The difference between depression and sadness is that sadness is just from happenstance. Whatever happened or didn’t happen for you, or grief or whatever it is. Depression is your body saying ‘fuck you, I don’t want to be this character anymore. I don’t want to hold up this avatar that you created. And the world is too much for me,’”

Jim Carrey

Am I depressed or just sad?